may i have the will to keep moving forward

time's slipping by

finished 4 papers, 3 to go.
a final weekend with choir
a final week at home

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so dang fast.
still havent finished studying for next paper. ugh
still havent packed for attachment too. double ugh.
SPSB may be going japan in july for a week.
i wanna go.
but...

Time to move on brey

Thank you those who came for the concert. Thank you mr chiang for the opportunity. Thank you those who encouraged me ad wished me. I'm sorry as well. I absolutely enjoyed and loved the music we performed together last night. It took my breath away how we brought out the pieces. I was only disappointed in myself. I expected much better of myself. But as I sat there playing new world. A rush vane over me. As I remembered how I felt in the first half. Joy. I didn't live up to my expections for my own solo piece and that combined with how we all played that first half released the floodgates. After gaga my resistance broke and I rushed off. I'm really grateful to have y'all. I can't decide how I performed personally but last night was a special night for all spsb members. To the year 3s. It's a wonderful concert to have performed with you all. I wish you all the very best. To the committee. You guys are awesome ppl who have really guided the band extremely well. I'm sorry to have been more of a burden. To the most Saxy section ever. Y'all are the best. We gonna keep being who we are, as awesome musicians and as crazy loving family.

anxious

its a crazy period for me right now. in a week's time its our concert MD 34th! im gonna be performing my solo piece. gonna be playing in front of my family and friends. gonna play for myself. thank you Lord for this opportunity.

i still carry on

MST

its mid terms. again. im done with two papers left 3 more. the next on in 12 hours. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING STILL UP AT THIS BLOODY TIME.

reminder to self: post only at appropriate moments. NOT during MST week and ESPECIALLY NOT THE NIGHT/MORNING BEFORE A PAPER EVEN IF ITS IN THE AFTERNOON.

Decem... almost.

last day of november. quite an eventful month. ive just done my first test and have four remaining, thursday next week being unofficial holidays! band has been extremely energy sapping and i got little time to squeeze in revision coz of (unnecessary) activities which i tend to indulge myself in despite being in the midst of Mid Semester Tests. thats just me i suppose. somehow scrape through doing alright or look back and regret.

anyway. to more happier scenario. im looking forward to MD. concert program is not so tiring compare to the last one. whats more im gonna perform a solo piece! so excited! still gotta work on it though. i think i just managed to edge the spot. gotta prove i can do it.

waiting waiting...

ive caught up to the latest season of How I Met Your Mother (6 just came out on tv!) so i moved on to leverage. exciting show id say. but season 3 is still downloadin. (shhhhhhh!) the two seasons more or less occupied my nights. (end up sleeping at 3am every night) my bones also on the way. though i got season 5 alr. -.- hmm, wonder what other awesome shows i could watch. \\

rawrrr. waiting for time to pass now. sp band later at 630 though im going off at 730-ish to bouna vista for swsyouth. i can say im pretty happy to go for pracs again. im not very tired nowadays as well after playing soccer. been working out  a lil to improve my fitness. though i still eat a lot. :o

band band band band band. its thursday alr. everyday feels like a weekend now. hah

start of the holas!

holas, meaning holidays!

though the buid up was pretty insane. after the concert, back to school. the academic side. cant say i focused and gave my full attention. managed to pull through the final week before the YOG break. i admit i didnt really study and revise during this period. spent most of my time playing Aion >.<

anyhow, i pay the price for my crimes to myself. i prolly just scraped through this semester. gpa will definitely drop. hopeful i am to to maintain at least 3.0. =/

gonna forget about the whole exam period and blah blah. the last few days were pretty epic. when i finished my final paper on tuesday, went over to kayheng's place alon with mark to play ps3. two other friends of kay's arrived later on and impromptu decision to stay over and watch soccer. nee3dless to say, i only slep at 7 in the morning when i got back home.
 so i slept wednesday away. woke at 3+ and joined louis and jess from my choir for a work out at the gym. t'was a well spent day i'd say.after the work out we just sat at a void deck and chilled till bout 1030-ish. (gymed 7-830 i think.)
oh, it doesnt end there. thurs i met up with my bestmate ak47. kiddin, AK is A. Kumarran. hah. been a long while since i hung out with him. but no matter the how long its been, we're still pretty cool. heh. caught the movie grown ups which was a really good value for money id say as well. we then proceeded to walk all the way from plaza sing to junction8 at bishan. took us 2 hours, 12 km and a bottle of apple juice each to make it to our destination. we'll look back years from now and remember that day. oh, and i finally got my guitar  back from sarvin whom i lent to a year ago.
so, pretty much my muscles ache. this morning went to the cage at kallang and played soccer! officially holidays are next week and ive alr done quite a lot. heh.

weekends are here. though everyday feels like one. heh heh. right, off to finish up season 5 of how i met your mother!

IBM

congratz SPSB.  y'all did a good job. it was an awesome night. you are such and outstanding person.

i hope i can find my way back, or rather put myself on the right track. im really weak and scared. im lost and i want to get together with y'all. i dont want to feel alone. im selfish, i want to change that. i dont know whether i have time on my side. im really sorry. i know trying may not be enough, but i'll try to open my mouth more, open up and communicatefor now. i hope to make good relations from now. i hope i can gain your support and return the favor.