may i have the will to keep moving forward

time's slipping by

finished 4 papers, 3 to go.
a final weekend with choir
a final week at home

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so dang fast.
still havent finished studying for next paper. ugh
still havent packed for attachment too. double ugh.
SPSB may be going japan in july for a week.
i wanna go.
but...

Time to move on brey

Thank you those who came for the concert. Thank you mr chiang for the opportunity. Thank you those who encouraged me ad wished me. I'm sorry as well. I absolutely enjoyed and loved the music we performed together last night. It took my breath away how we brought out the pieces. I was only disappointed in myself. I expected much better of myself. But as I sat there playing new world. A rush vane over me. As I remembered how I felt in the first half. Joy. I didn't live up to my expections for my own solo piece and that combined with how we all played that first half released the floodgates. After gaga my resistance broke and I rushed off. I'm really grateful to have y'all. I can't decide how I performed personally but last night was a special night for all spsb members. To the year 3s. It's a wonderful concert to have performed with you all. I wish you all the very best. To the committee. You guys are awesome ppl who have really guided the band extremely well. I'm sorry to have been more of a burden. To the most Saxy section ever. Y'all are the best. We gonna keep being who we are, as awesome musicians and as crazy loving family.

anxious

its a crazy period for me right now. in a week's time its our concert MD 34th! im gonna be performing my solo piece. gonna be playing in front of my family and friends. gonna play for myself. thank you Lord for this opportunity.

i still carry on

MST

its mid terms. again. im done with two papers left 3 more. the next on in 12 hours. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING STILL UP AT THIS BLOODY TIME.

reminder to self: post only at appropriate moments. NOT during MST week and ESPECIALLY NOT THE NIGHT/MORNING BEFORE A PAPER EVEN IF ITS IN THE AFTERNOON.

Decem... almost.

last day of november. quite an eventful month. ive just done my first test and have four remaining, thursday next week being unofficial holidays! band has been extremely energy sapping and i got little time to squeeze in revision coz of (unnecessary) activities which i tend to indulge myself in despite being in the midst of Mid Semester Tests. thats just me i suppose. somehow scrape through doing alright or look back and regret.

anyway. to more happier scenario. im looking forward to MD. concert program is not so tiring compare to the last one. whats more im gonna perform a solo piece! so excited! still gotta work on it though. i think i just managed to edge the spot. gotta prove i can do it.

waiting waiting...

ive caught up to the latest season of How I Met Your Mother (6 just came out on tv!) so i moved on to leverage. exciting show id say. but season 3 is still downloadin. (shhhhhhh!) the two seasons more or less occupied my nights. (end up sleeping at 3am every night) my bones also on the way. though i got season 5 alr. -.- hmm, wonder what other awesome shows i could watch. \\

rawrrr. waiting for time to pass now. sp band later at 630 though im going off at 730-ish to bouna vista for swsyouth. i can say im pretty happy to go for pracs again. im not very tired nowadays as well after playing soccer. been working out  a lil to improve my fitness. though i still eat a lot. :o

band band band band band. its thursday alr. everyday feels like a weekend now. hah

start of the holas!

holas, meaning holidays!

though the buid up was pretty insane. after the concert, back to school. the academic side. cant say i focused and gave my full attention. managed to pull through the final week before the YOG break. i admit i didnt really study and revise during this period. spent most of my time playing Aion >.<

anyhow, i pay the price for my crimes to myself. i prolly just scraped through this semester. gpa will definitely drop. hopeful i am to to maintain at least 3.0. =/

gonna forget about the whole exam period and blah blah. the last few days were pretty epic. when i finished my final paper on tuesday, went over to kayheng's place alon with mark to play ps3. two other friends of kay's arrived later on and impromptu decision to stay over and watch soccer. nee3dless to say, i only slep at 7 in the morning when i got back home.
 so i slept wednesday away. woke at 3+ and joined louis and jess from my choir for a work out at the gym. t'was a well spent day i'd say.after the work out we just sat at a void deck and chilled till bout 1030-ish. (gymed 7-830 i think.)
oh, it doesnt end there. thurs i met up with my bestmate ak47. kiddin, AK is A. Kumarran. hah. been a long while since i hung out with him. but no matter the how long its been, we're still pretty cool. heh. caught the movie grown ups which was a really good value for money id say as well. we then proceeded to walk all the way from plaza sing to junction8 at bishan. took us 2 hours, 12 km and a bottle of apple juice each to make it to our destination. we'll look back years from now and remember that day. oh, and i finally got my guitar  back from sarvin whom i lent to a year ago.
so, pretty much my muscles ache. this morning went to the cage at kallang and played soccer! officially holidays are next week and ive alr done quite a lot. heh.

weekends are here. though everyday feels like one. heh heh. right, off to finish up season 5 of how i met your mother!

IBM

congratz SPSB.  y'all did a good job. it was an awesome night. you are such and outstanding person.

i hope i can find my way back, or rather put myself on the right track. im really weak and scared. im lost and i want to get together with y'all. i dont want to feel alone. im selfish, i want to change that. i dont know whether i have time on my side. im really sorry. i know trying may not be enough, but i'll try to open my mouth more, open up and communicatefor now. i hope to make good relations from now. i hope i can gain your support and return the favor.

glad

really sorry for making lots of people worry.

thankful and extremely blessed to have such caring friends around me. thank you all for putting up with me.

i'll do my best. i wanna cherish this. im sorry

GOLD WITH HONOURS. TOP BAND

after watching peixin clinching honours twice and stgabs retaining the gold, i was anticipating this NBC a lot. 3 years it was since i played in a competition band. i was in bliss in p6, merely joyful upon getting gold in 2004. disappointed but my heart wasn't in the band as much yet as i was only sec 1 and we achieved silver the following year. i teared in sec 3 when we got that gold in 2007 for exodus which eluded the previous batches since 1999. this day eclipsed even that.

we went through a crazy month which i feel made us stronger and more accepting and appreciating for one another. countless hours over and over the same two pieces. leading a double life trying to keep up in class. but the efforts nonetheless was totally worth it. the two bands results were 85%, got me anxious. a single percentile was enough to send us all screaming. 86.33% is such a blissful figure. not only a Gold with Honour but also making SPSB the top band in the open division. i'll never forget this night. screamed my lungs out in triumph as we roared as a band. the tears which signified our passion and love for the band, the music we performed, freely escaped.

i absolutely have this special place in my heart for the band. further strengthened after this accomplishment. thank you mr chiang and mr tan for leading us. all the members, we were imbal. my section for juz being the most saxy people on earth.

wake up

i am absolutely horrible. i am totally unprepared in life. i am sorry.

i've got to learn to cope. to shoulder responsibilities. plan ahead. take the initiative.

refresh

feel better. thanks melv and daryl.

ima do better. work harder. i know i can. pray and keep the faith.

in a mess....

im broke. im confused. i''m lost. im lazy. im unfit. im sick. im annoyed. im hungry. im bored. im unstable. im a wuss. im.... always moping around.

im trying to find the mood. for jazz. that extra bit more in the other band. being more trusted. more reliable. more open. hardworking. fun.


ive made changes. im bored. thats why. tired too. perhaps i could fall asleep immediately.

Worthwhile.....

Came across this article...


Being a musician is a pretty hard job. Firstly, the process usually starts when you’re in primary school, and you have to go through a very long period of “playing” something which, if truth be told, you can’t really make a very nice noise on. However, the noise gradually improves, and you eventually appeal to people other than your parents and your instrumental teacher.


But why are we just the absolute best?

The amount of time it takes us. Not many people would be prepared to put years and years of practice into their hobby. Musicians have to practice for anything upto 5 hours per day to make sure that they don’t lose their technique. This is true dedication.
We have to learn a new language. Unless you’re latin/french/italian/german all rolled into one, you probably couldn’t read musical terms before you started playing. At the back of any theory book, there are hundreds of these words that we have to learn just to make our music make sense. If we didn’t take the time to learn these words, your listening experience would be very dull indeed.
We can play complex music based upon where dots are placed on a couple of lines. If you’re not a musician and have ever actually seen a piece of music, you probably wondered how on Earth we could make sense of these notes. Right from being small, we have been taught that certain lines mean certain notes, and similar. Not only this, but we also have to read these dots very quickly, and the “colouring in” of the dot tells us how long to play it for, along with the type of stick. We also have to read a lot of foreign words at the same time to tell us how to play the notes.
If that isn’t hard enough, when we’re a bit more advanced, we come across clefs. Pianists will have been used to two of these, but will soon come to realise that they are never ending. Which clef happens to be present could change everything. And, we have to remember for the whole piece of music which clef it’s in, and somehow manage to play the right notes, remembering which notes sit on which line for this particular clef.
We bring people happiness. Whether it’s a drummer at a rock concert, or a brass band in a park, people enjoy music. The music industry would be nothing without the people who take the time to learn the ins and outs of music, and Simon Cowell would be living in a one bedroom apartment in a London backstreet. So, for all of you who have ever calld musicians “nerds” or “geeks”, remember that your world would be nothing without them.
We give children something to aim for. When I was a young child, just starting to play my instrument, I remember wondering whether it would all be worth it in the end. I used to search for videos on the internet of people who could oplay my instrument well, and I decided that if there was even the smallest amount of chance that I would one day be able to play like those people, that it would be well worth carrying on with it. 
So, musicians are clearly a special breed of people. No matter what instrument we play, or to what standard, we are contributing to the music industry just the same, and will one day make some people truely happy. That’s something for all of us to be proud of, and work towards when we’re wondering whether it is worth the effort.

Hmmm... Worth the effort eh?

chill

really should follow emmelyn's advice. chill-lax a little bit. as much as i may want to deny it, im not coping well with everything thats happening at the moment. and im always rushed and 'gan chiong' (i have no idea how its spelled) need to do some soul searching.

MST is 2 weeks away. ohmigosh. next week there's a few theory test and practicals! arghhhh! dang it! need some mozart to aid me in my revisions. HAHA.

supersized saxys

saxyphones are just awesome. another family tree coming up.. the great penguin elliotttt is gonna have many many grandkidsss! tsk tsk!!!

been neglecting jazz band all of a sudden... =/

Mama Mia~~~

Group8: Mama mia~~

our cheer!!
Mama Mia! We will own this camp!
Oh Yeah! We will rock ya till ya scream!
-kyaaaaaaaahhhh@@@@@@@@-
Mama Mia! We will own again!
Come on! MAMA MIA FOR THE WIN!

with clement

with jeremey

with randall(rachel)

with kay heng

with carmen

 

with maddy

thanks so much fellow Mamas! we all did well and have great fun together!

celebration

i celebrated my 18th with SRC today. im really glad to be part of this wonderful choir. thank you Lord that ive found my way to them. may i continue to sing praises in your name together with the wonderful members!

thanks louis jessica and gwyneth for staying on. haha.