i still carry on

MST

its mid terms. again. im done with two papers left 3 more. the next on in 12 hours. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING STILL UP AT THIS BLOODY TIME.

reminder to self: post only at appropriate moments. NOT during MST week and ESPECIALLY NOT THE NIGHT/MORNING BEFORE A PAPER EVEN IF ITS IN THE AFTERNOON.

Decem... almost.

last day of november. quite an eventful month. ive just done my first test and have four remaining, thursday next week being unofficial holidays! band has been extremely energy sapping and i got little time to squeeze in revision coz of (unnecessary) activities which i tend to indulge myself in despite being in the midst of Mid Semester Tests. thats just me i suppose. somehow scrape through doing alright or look back and regret.

anyway. to more happier scenario. im looking forward to MD. concert program is not so tiring compare to the last one. whats more im gonna perform a solo piece! so excited! still gotta work on it though. i think i just managed to edge the spot. gotta prove i can do it.

waiting waiting...

ive caught up to the latest season of How I Met Your Mother (6 just came out on tv!) so i moved on to leverage. exciting show id say. but season 3 is still downloadin. (shhhhhhh!) the two seasons more or less occupied my nights. (end up sleeping at 3am every night) my bones also on the way. though i got season 5 alr. -.- hmm, wonder what other awesome shows i could watch. \\

rawrrr. waiting for time to pass now. sp band later at 630 though im going off at 730-ish to bouna vista for swsyouth. i can say im pretty happy to go for pracs again. im not very tired nowadays as well after playing soccer. been working out  a lil to improve my fitness. though i still eat a lot. :o

band band band band band. its thursday alr. everyday feels like a weekend now. hah

start of the holas!

holas, meaning holidays!

though the buid up was pretty insane. after the concert, back to school. the academic side. cant say i focused and gave my full attention. managed to pull through the final week before the YOG break. i admit i didnt really study and revise during this period. spent most of my time playing Aion >.<

anyhow, i pay the price for my crimes to myself. i prolly just scraped through this semester. gpa will definitely drop. hopeful i am to to maintain at least 3.0. =/

gonna forget about the whole exam period and blah blah. the last few days were pretty epic. when i finished my final paper on tuesday, went over to kayheng's place alon with mark to play ps3. two other friends of kay's arrived later on and impromptu decision to stay over and watch soccer. nee3dless to say, i only slep at 7 in the morning when i got back home.
 so i slept wednesday away. woke at 3+ and joined louis and jess from my choir for a work out at the gym. t'was a well spent day i'd say.after the work out we just sat at a void deck and chilled till bout 1030-ish. (gymed 7-830 i think.)
oh, it doesnt end there. thurs i met up with my bestmate ak47. kiddin, AK is A. Kumarran. hah. been a long while since i hung out with him. but no matter the how long its been, we're still pretty cool. heh. caught the movie grown ups which was a really good value for money id say as well. we then proceeded to walk all the way from plaza sing to junction8 at bishan. took us 2 hours, 12 km and a bottle of apple juice each to make it to our destination. we'll look back years from now and remember that day. oh, and i finally got my guitar  back from sarvin whom i lent to a year ago.
so, pretty much my muscles ache. this morning went to the cage at kallang and played soccer! officially holidays are next week and ive alr done quite a lot. heh.

weekends are here. though everyday feels like one. heh heh. right, off to finish up season 5 of how i met your mother!

IBM

congratz SPSB.  y'all did a good job. it was an awesome night. you are such and outstanding person.

i hope i can find my way back, or rather put myself on the right track. im really weak and scared. im lost and i want to get together with y'all. i dont want to feel alone. im selfish, i want to change that. i dont know whether i have time on my side. im really sorry. i know trying may not be enough, but i'll try to open my mouth more, open up and communicatefor now. i hope to make good relations from now. i hope i can gain your support and return the favor.

glad

really sorry for making lots of people worry.

thankful and extremely blessed to have such caring friends around me. thank you all for putting up with me.

i'll do my best. i wanna cherish this. im sorry

GOLD WITH HONOURS. TOP BAND

after watching peixin clinching honours twice and stgabs retaining the gold, i was anticipating this NBC a lot. 3 years it was since i played in a competition band. i was in bliss in p6, merely joyful upon getting gold in 2004. disappointed but my heart wasn't in the band as much yet as i was only sec 1 and we achieved silver the following year. i teared in sec 3 when we got that gold in 2007 for exodus which eluded the previous batches since 1999. this day eclipsed even that.

we went through a crazy month which i feel made us stronger and more accepting and appreciating for one another. countless hours over and over the same two pieces. leading a double life trying to keep up in class. but the efforts nonetheless was totally worth it. the two bands results were 85%, got me anxious. a single percentile was enough to send us all screaming. 86.33% is such a blissful figure. not only a Gold with Honour but also making SPSB the top band in the open division. i'll never forget this night. screamed my lungs out in triumph as we roared as a band. the tears which signified our passion and love for the band, the music we performed, freely escaped.

i absolutely have this special place in my heart for the band. further strengthened after this accomplishment. thank you mr chiang and mr tan for leading us. all the members, we were imbal. my section for juz being the most saxy people on earth.

wake up

i am absolutely horrible. i am totally unprepared in life. i am sorry.

i've got to learn to cope. to shoulder responsibilities. plan ahead. take the initiative.

refresh

feel better. thanks melv and daryl.

ima do better. work harder. i know i can. pray and keep the faith.