MST

its mid terms. again. im done with two papers left 3 more. the next on in 12 hours. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING STILL UP AT THIS BLOODY TIME.

reminder to self: post only at appropriate moments. NOT during MST week and ESPECIALLY NOT THE NIGHT/MORNING BEFORE A PAPER EVEN IF ITS IN THE AFTERNOON.

Decem... almost.

last day of november. quite an eventful month. ive just done my first test and have four remaining, thursday next week being unofficial holidays! band has been extremely energy sapping and i got little time to squeeze in revision coz of (unnecessary) activities which i tend to indulge myself in despite being in the midst of Mid Semester Tests. thats just me i suppose. somehow scrape through doing alright or look back and regret.

anyway. to more happier scenario. im looking forward to MD. concert program is not so tiring compare to the last one. whats more im gonna perform a solo piece! so excited! still gotta work on it though. i think i just managed to edge the spot. gotta prove i can do it.

waiting waiting...

ive caught up to the latest season of How I Met Your Mother (6 just came out on tv!) so i moved on to leverage. exciting show id say. but season 3 is still downloadin. (shhhhhhh!) the two seasons more or less occupied my nights. (end up sleeping at 3am every night) my bones also on the way. though i got season 5 alr. -.- hmm, wonder what other awesome shows i could watch. \\

rawrrr. waiting for time to pass now. sp band later at 630 though im going off at 730-ish to bouna vista for swsyouth. i can say im pretty happy to go for pracs again. im not very tired nowadays as well after playing soccer. been working out  a lil to improve my fitness. though i still eat a lot. :o

band band band band band. its thursday alr. everyday feels like a weekend now. hah

start of the holas!

holas, meaning holidays!

though the buid up was pretty insane. after the concert, back to school. the academic side. cant say i focused and gave my full attention. managed to pull through the final week before the YOG break. i admit i didnt really study and revise during this period. spent most of my time playing Aion >.<

anyhow, i pay the price for my crimes to myself. i prolly just scraped through this semester. gpa will definitely drop. hopeful i am to to maintain at least 3.0. =/

gonna forget about the whole exam period and blah blah. the last few days were pretty epic. when i finished my final paper on tuesday, went over to kayheng's place alon with mark to play ps3. two other friends of kay's arrived later on and impromptu decision to stay over and watch soccer. nee3dless to say, i only slep at 7 in the morning when i got back home.
 so i slept wednesday away. woke at 3+ and joined louis and jess from my choir for a work out at the gym. t'was a well spent day i'd say.after the work out we just sat at a void deck and chilled till bout 1030-ish. (gymed 7-830 i think.)
oh, it doesnt end there. thurs i met up with my bestmate ak47. kiddin, AK is A. Kumarran. hah. been a long while since i hung out with him. but no matter the how long its been, we're still pretty cool. heh. caught the movie grown ups which was a really good value for money id say as well. we then proceeded to walk all the way from plaza sing to junction8 at bishan. took us 2 hours, 12 km and a bottle of apple juice each to make it to our destination. we'll look back years from now and remember that day. oh, and i finally got my guitar  back from sarvin whom i lent to a year ago.
so, pretty much my muscles ache. this morning went to the cage at kallang and played soccer! officially holidays are next week and ive alr done quite a lot. heh.

weekends are here. though everyday feels like one. heh heh. right, off to finish up season 5 of how i met your mother!

IBM

congratz SPSB.  y'all did a good job. it was an awesome night. you are such and outstanding person.

i hope i can find my way back, or rather put myself on the right track. im really weak and scared. im lost and i want to get together with y'all. i dont want to feel alone. im selfish, i want to change that. i dont know whether i have time on my side. im really sorry. i know trying may not be enough, but i'll try to open my mouth more, open up and communicatefor now. i hope to make good relations from now. i hope i can gain your support and return the favor.

glad

really sorry for making lots of people worry.

thankful and extremely blessed to have such caring friends around me. thank you all for putting up with me.

i'll do my best. i wanna cherish this. im sorry

GOLD WITH HONOURS. TOP BAND

after watching peixin clinching honours twice and stgabs retaining the gold, i was anticipating this NBC a lot. 3 years it was since i played in a competition band. i was in bliss in p6, merely joyful upon getting gold in 2004. disappointed but my heart wasn't in the band as much yet as i was only sec 1 and we achieved silver the following year. i teared in sec 3 when we got that gold in 2007 for exodus which eluded the previous batches since 1999. this day eclipsed even that.

we went through a crazy month which i feel made us stronger and more accepting and appreciating for one another. countless hours over and over the same two pieces. leading a double life trying to keep up in class. but the efforts nonetheless was totally worth it. the two bands results were 85%, got me anxious. a single percentile was enough to send us all screaming. 86.33% is such a blissful figure. not only a Gold with Honour but also making SPSB the top band in the open division. i'll never forget this night. screamed my lungs out in triumph as we roared as a band. the tears which signified our passion and love for the band, the music we performed, freely escaped.

i absolutely have this special place in my heart for the band. further strengthened after this accomplishment. thank you mr chiang and mr tan for leading us. all the members, we were imbal. my section for juz being the most saxy people on earth.

wake up

i am absolutely horrible. i am totally unprepared in life. i am sorry.

i've got to learn to cope. to shoulder responsibilities. plan ahead. take the initiative.

refresh

feel better. thanks melv and daryl.

ima do better. work harder. i know i can. pray and keep the faith.

in a mess....

im broke. im confused. i''m lost. im lazy. im unfit. im sick. im annoyed. im hungry. im bored. im unstable. im a wuss. im.... always moping around.

im trying to find the mood. for jazz. that extra bit more in the other band. being more trusted. more reliable. more open. hardworking. fun.


ive made changes. im bored. thats why. tired too. perhaps i could fall asleep immediately.

Worthwhile.....

Came across this article...


Being a musician is a pretty hard job. Firstly, the process usually starts when you’re in primary school, and you have to go through a very long period of “playing” something which, if truth be told, you can’t really make a very nice noise on. However, the noise gradually improves, and you eventually appeal to people other than your parents and your instrumental teacher.


But why are we just the absolute best?

The amount of time it takes us. Not many people would be prepared to put years and years of practice into their hobby. Musicians have to practice for anything upto 5 hours per day to make sure that they don’t lose their technique. This is true dedication.
We have to learn a new language. Unless you’re latin/french/italian/german all rolled into one, you probably couldn’t read musical terms before you started playing. At the back of any theory book, there are hundreds of these words that we have to learn just to make our music make sense. If we didn’t take the time to learn these words, your listening experience would be very dull indeed.
We can play complex music based upon where dots are placed on a couple of lines. If you’re not a musician and have ever actually seen a piece of music, you probably wondered how on Earth we could make sense of these notes. Right from being small, we have been taught that certain lines mean certain notes, and similar. Not only this, but we also have to read these dots very quickly, and the “colouring in” of the dot tells us how long to play it for, along with the type of stick. We also have to read a lot of foreign words at the same time to tell us how to play the notes.
If that isn’t hard enough, when we’re a bit more advanced, we come across clefs. Pianists will have been used to two of these, but will soon come to realise that they are never ending. Which clef happens to be present could change everything. And, we have to remember for the whole piece of music which clef it’s in, and somehow manage to play the right notes, remembering which notes sit on which line for this particular clef.
We bring people happiness. Whether it’s a drummer at a rock concert, or a brass band in a park, people enjoy music. The music industry would be nothing without the people who take the time to learn the ins and outs of music, and Simon Cowell would be living in a one bedroom apartment in a London backstreet. So, for all of you who have ever calld musicians “nerds” or “geeks”, remember that your world would be nothing without them.
We give children something to aim for. When I was a young child, just starting to play my instrument, I remember wondering whether it would all be worth it in the end. I used to search for videos on the internet of people who could oplay my instrument well, and I decided that if there was even the smallest amount of chance that I would one day be able to play like those people, that it would be well worth carrying on with it. 
So, musicians are clearly a special breed of people. No matter what instrument we play, or to what standard, we are contributing to the music industry just the same, and will one day make some people truely happy. That’s something for all of us to be proud of, and work towards when we’re wondering whether it is worth the effort.

Hmmm... Worth the effort eh?

chill

really should follow emmelyn's advice. chill-lax a little bit. as much as i may want to deny it, im not coping well with everything thats happening at the moment. and im always rushed and 'gan chiong' (i have no idea how its spelled) need to do some soul searching.

MST is 2 weeks away. ohmigosh. next week there's a few theory test and practicals! arghhhh! dang it! need some mozart to aid me in my revisions. HAHA.

supersized saxys

saxyphones are just awesome. another family tree coming up.. the great penguin elliotttt is gonna have many many grandkidsss! tsk tsk!!!

been neglecting jazz band all of a sudden... =/

Mama Mia~~~

Group8: Mama mia~~

our cheer!!
Mama Mia! We will own this camp!
Oh Yeah! We will rock ya till ya scream!
-kyaaaaaaaahhhh@@@@@@@@-
Mama Mia! We will own again!
Come on! MAMA MIA FOR THE WIN!

with clement

with jeremey

with randall(rachel)

with kay heng

with carmen

 

with maddy

thanks so much fellow Mamas! we all did well and have great fun together!

celebration

i celebrated my 18th with SRC today. im really glad to be part of this wonderful choir. thank you Lord that ive found my way to them. may i continue to sing praises in your name together with the wonderful members!

thanks louis jessica and gwyneth for staying on. haha.

=D

E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N E I G H T E E N





ive already been sat on. had cake smeared on my face. haha. whacked with baseball bat(balloon). haha. thanks band clique

chill?

i suppose i could chill a little. dont wanna make it seem im too eager and take away all the fun. hmm..

jazz band re evaluation the week after next. wah. gotta think of wat to play. and work on improv.

im still sleeping during morning classes.

May

It's may! That's real fast. Hittng that 'landmark' in a few days time. Try not to fall asleep in class.

words.

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.' When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence... 'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you' Something good will happen to you today; something that you have been waiting to hear.


JUST 19 WORDS

GOD OUR FATHER,
WALK THROUGH MY HOUSE
AND TAKE AWAY ALL MY WORRIES AND ILLNESSES;
AND PLEASE WATCH OVER AND HEAL MY FAMILY
IN JESUS' NAME.. AMEN

hurrah the week is over

there were moments where i really felt time was pulling my leg. every single day was long and exhausting. cca drive is over baby! performances are done and dusted. got a pretty good number wishing to join in both jazz and symphonic band. though maybe next year we'll just scrap the performance at moberly and set up the live band at the booth. we got 80% of the names juz after day 1.

yep. those past few days were crazy for me personally. rushes of emotions threatens to overcome my control. i could burst any moment. im just struggling in matching up the standard. being confident enough to try. more determined to practice. the thought of giving up is so strong sometimes that it scares me. i wonder if i can actually do this.

also the responsibilities of a committee member are driving me up the wall. im not exactly the model student kind. i get by most of the time doing the minimal work. now as the secretary in jazzband, ive got to do loads. and im still getting used to it. not to mention being the concert coordinator is basically in charge of ALL the SHIT in the TWO CONCERTS.

can i cope with schoolwork? gosh, i dont even want to get started on that topic. gotta improve my gpa this sem.

Muddled thoughts

Watched another concert today. Not bad, enjoyed myself. Strangely, this year in every performance I went to catch, I seem to revisit my past. Familiar tunes that I've played over the years of my 'bandlife' haha...

I really enjoyed and never regretted accepting the idiot's invitation =D to try out the band.. Though now, things have changed. It's coming down to something that isn't juz fun, but something that can be pursued prolly? I don't know wat to do sometimes. I feel like just letting things flow but at the same time, there's something nagging at me to do more.. Internal struggle within my mind.

Pulling one way then the other... I need to motivate myself more. Get rid of these insecurities..

drained

one day left to the first week of the new school year. and i already noticed the doom and gloom which came along with the modules im to take this semester. wohoo...... ... .. .

just experienced a four-days-which-im-in-school-from-8am-and-only-get-home-round-1030? im pretty screwed. damn, committee in two CCAs is no joke. hope i stay sane...

turandot turandot... nice piece. lets play faster. HAHA.

odyssey

i had a good time. thanks guys.


btw, if you got a concert, try not to go to a chalet. especially one with lotsa booze. quite fun, messy, energy sapping, sleep depriving. i practically drove myself crazy.

had a good rest today. parents anniversary and we ate out at long beach seafood. unfortunately sis is at camp, so we'll go out during the weekends for round two. =D

argh, need exercise. missed the badminton session due to my participation for the concert. tomorrow, or rather later on, sweat it out and lets play some football!

tired

i feel like im getting tired of band. or rather starting to lose that feeling in visiting my previous sch bands.

gahhhhhh

still not done arranging the saxophone quintet for stgabs saxes. left with just about a week. rush rush now. still didn't prac it much as well. ohmigosh.

been going for band like nearly everyday so thought i could justify yesterday by playing soccer in the morning followed by fifa2010 on xbox360 at jacob's place from 4 to 9. hah. oh im so bloody rusty in jazz. mind is blank again. though im still pretty bad at it, it was total KO during wed night's prac.

today was supposed to soccer with the guys from 2e1 05, but i'd rather sleep. paiseh paiseh! slept all the way till 2. what a pig ive become. well, it was raining just sooooo darn good to stay in bed. hah hah. at least i picked up my alto. i found a new warm up piece. heh heh. bumblebee. ZZzzzzZZZZzzzzzz. gotta play more at home. who gives a rat's arse bout the neighbours. muahahahahahahahahahah..

im glad i didnt stay home the whole day, or whats left of it anyway. choir prac. though melv louis and jess didnt go. was surprised to see gwyneth since she usually had prac till 8 at sajc band. daryl and nini were there so it was alright. hah. in the end i met up with jess after prac as she was studyin the whole day at sch. talk talk then as i thought of going for a jog it started to drizzle. what the. i wonder if nini still went for his jog. ah well. maybe tomorrow. since theres no prac at night.

genting~

Woo! it was fun. stayed over at yang's place with alan on sunday night. we juz kept ourselfves awake the whole night by first playing cards then entertaining ourselves on ps3. cabbed down to goden mile and surprisingly we were on time. bing was already there and liyi came soon after followed by elli and carrie. soon we boarded the bus.


managed to read The Notebook bout 3/4 in between falling asleep , watching Avatar and chatting with bing. saw the aftermath of an accident just after passing the huge sign Genting Highlands. a huge lorry seem to have toppled over a van, crushing it.. finally we got there. played some arcade before checking in our rooms. oh man, the hotel rooms were small. really budget. haha. after dinner we went to the snow city and just wreaked havoc. snowball fights among ourselves and somehow with another group of people who drew first blood. yang was really merciless and alan got himself injured after a wrestling move by godzilla! totally worn out that night we fell asleep after chilling at the girls room(which was the biggest among the 3) before calling it a day.


woke up early to have breakfast. bought the outdoor package since the indoor doesnt really appeal to most(also wanna save some cash) started off with The Flying Coaster. great start. haha. the whole morning till late afternoon was just purely fun and laughter, did i mention screams? yeah, that too. won some stuffed toys as well. that night we spent our time collecting more ticket coupons at the arcade. played one game mainly throughout. we managed 2330 for all our efforts(and money). woo. played around in the foggy night as well. chilly time while taking photos and drank starbucks. had some drinking afterwards and chatting. and no uncle elliot, i wasnt drunk. Zzzzzz.. we all did get some sleep though.


the next morning yang alan and myself had breakfast since we were the more heavy eaters so we used the breakfast coupons.joined the rest for the cable car ride. pretty good view. we kept imagining what if the cable car ride was instead a roller coaster. or flying fox? i know i'd just die. speaking of dying, almost felt like it during lunch. we ate at some noodle place and we got a table at the smoking area. actually it doesnt matter whether theres a smoking area or not since in was still in the mall. not like there are walls separating the two areas. to make matters worse, there doesnt seem to be any ventilation around. suffocating. luckily we managed to move further away from the table with the main culprits of our torture. soon we were on the coach back. the return trip felt much faster since we all fell asleep and traffic was minimum compared to monday morning.had noodles again got dinner at the pit stop. and finally back on singapore soil. got to golden mile around 830. cabbed home with kovie. and sleeping on my bed... ahhh

the next few days were extremely hot. i feel like melting when i go out of my house to attend stgab band prac. i definitely miss the cooler atmosphere.and those foggy nights(mornings as well). kinda reminds me of Tagaytay City back home in the Philippines. i love the cool weather there too!

awesome trip anyways. had a really good time. thanks yo liyi elli bing kovie carrie alan yang!

determined.

that's it! im gonna jog tomorrow. hope its the start of a consistent effort by myself. ARGH!

can't wait for monday too! genting trip with bandmates! yeah!

woo! england won 3-1 as well!

vacation

yep yep. time for some relaxation. mechanics was.. fine i guess. played badminton with tzeyang after the paper. lunched, then played 2 hours of guitar hero at moberly. hah!

got home i went out to cycle around the neighbourhood..

yeahh.. im bored sittin at home today so i did this. my body is pretty sore too. yesterday played soccer at bishan. im feeling the aches. oww.

its the 3rd of march. oh darn. i gotta send an email to jazzbanders. forgot. todays the deadline.

monday!

last paper on monday! my most dreaded module. Mechanics!

maths was pretty alright last tuesday. yesterday however, electronics scored a sucker-punch right down our guts. hah. totally unexpected paper. no resemblance to any of the past year papers.  damn, our lecturer wasnt kidding on causing an uproar before he retires.

with that in mind, i can only expect the worst for whats to come out for mechanics. this module was a bitch during MST. i even thought it was one of my safer modules and that i would die for electronics. it was the other way round that time, but im not getting excited that mechanics would prove to be kinder.

okok! revise revise. monday at 11am is holidays at last!

just dont get owned by this final paper.

glimmer

past 2 afternoons were spent revising with my classmates. quite productive. we went to jianyuan's place on thurs, as for friday i met up with them at woodlands to study in the library. about 430 headed to CCK with tzeyang to join alan. yes, revised till bout 730 before i made my way back to hougang to attend chori prac.

today i took a break. didnt revise at all.weak right? only 2 days of preoper revision, and im havin a day off. wat to do, haha. went over to shichun' house for the whole day. in between, i rused back to attend mass and made a return to have dinner with the jazzband-ers. filled our bellies and had fun, esp with WII, playing rockband. haha!

tmr gonna revise the day away. monday too. basically the whole week till the 1st of march. then, relax.....

G_G

im......... SCREWED

sigh.. need a mini miracle. hah.. 

come on brey, you can do it! tough though.. =/

go go go! 

-yes i can!- 

too lazy//

im too relaxed. and always rushing at the last minute. just about doing enough to survive. cliche.

cant wait to clear this week. was reminded while visiting bing's blog bout real estate test. hah. wtheck. forgot bout it. im so screwed for mechanics. dont know a thing. maths too. argh.

thursday marks the day holding the final presentation on two theorems we gotta prove. finally. never enjoyed doing such stuff.  friday's my first final exam. hah. autocadd please be kind. assembly drawing would prolly kill me. never practiced much.

speaking of practice, i should work on those new songs. getting bad at it.

hmm, ive bought the paper. do i have the heart to make them...

rushing!

ah, i don't think i'll enjoy feburary much for the next 2 years. the shortest month and things tend to cram within those 28/29 days. doesnt help the january flies, no flashed by, with all those practices for concerts. feb signifies deadlines for projects and presentations. and most importantly the exams.

pretty lucky this time round (i hope). only have 3 papers:
23rd Feb - Engineering Maths
26th Feb - Electronics
1st March - Mechanics

i cant wait for the very first afternoon of march! gonna take 3 days off in Genting along with band clique. before that though, gotta clear this week. monday's OC presentation, racing car showdown for our class, thursday's electronics presentation and friday's autocad test. the weekend's gonna be longer and more eventful as it's CNY!

mum's birthday comin up as well.. gonna do up a present~

grrr.

its annoying. me. myself. i don't know anymore.

projects, presentations and bands please distract me.

IMPROVISE~

ahhh, it was wonderful. we had fun and enkojed every minute we had on stage. thanks everyone!

after the concert was chaos as well, so funny.. the blown up baseball bats of the power rangers were too much for ninja vincent only armed with a smaller blown up sword. HAHAH. video on facebook! oh yea!

made our way to makasutra next to the esplanade. juz whack only. woo! got back home at 3am =D

thinking of last night's supper is making me hungry....

con-cert-s!

Its been a while since the last post. been busy preparing for yes, concerts!

symphonic band last last monday was awesome! esplanade~ woo! had a real good time, and everyone said the whole show sounded good. so, okay.. hah! personally a lil disappointed cuz made lots of silly errors that hardly occur.. lack of concentration.. but overall wedid sound alright. cept for hiccups peppered throughout the performances. ahh, hope we'll play there again for MD34th =D

usually a break from playing my instrument when the concert's done, however, i've still got the jazz band! woo! Improvise2! this friday liao and im still pretty bad at my solos. bah!!!! the good thing though is that the forms and overall sounds good. hah! juz down to a lil miracle and inspiration and practice for those individual parts.

oh, ive joined the SWS too. kinda died in that first session. haha. sian. go go brey! juz whack!

concentrate

should just focus on the upcoming performances.

monday 18th is SPSB Musical Delights 33rd. followed by a lunch time slot on wed 20th at Moberly. and right at the death, 29th is SPJazz Band Improvise2!

shouldnt forget about my assignments and projects. such a bitch is my schedule for this month. extremely rushed. so i don't need extra bullcrap affecting me.

nyeh..

served my first weekend with SRC for the year 2010. later had dinner at peter/bowie's place. lots of fun and laughter, esp during the games as daryl toppled the uno stacko twice in a row. hah!

cant wait for tomorrow's session of water games. borrowed vincent's big water gun(cannon though may suite it much better)cause he cant make it.. hah. gonna be wet and wild time.


having that tussle within myself again. not a great contribution seeing that im already wearing myself out with these practices for concerts. i always seem to do these matters pretty badly..

A New Beginning.

Happy 2010! May this new year bring good health to everyone! May the Lord sprinkle his blessings onto each and every family member and friends! woo!