hurrah the week is over

there were moments where i really felt time was pulling my leg. every single day was long and exhausting. cca drive is over baby! performances are done and dusted. got a pretty good number wishing to join in both jazz and symphonic band. though maybe next year we'll just scrap the performance at moberly and set up the live band at the booth. we got 80% of the names juz after day 1.

yep. those past few days were crazy for me personally. rushes of emotions threatens to overcome my control. i could burst any moment. im just struggling in matching up the standard. being confident enough to try. more determined to practice. the thought of giving up is so strong sometimes that it scares me. i wonder if i can actually do this.

also the responsibilities of a committee member are driving me up the wall. im not exactly the model student kind. i get by most of the time doing the minimal work. now as the secretary in jazzband, ive got to do loads. and im still getting used to it. not to mention being the concert coordinator is basically in charge of ALL the SHIT in the TWO CONCERTS.

can i cope with schoolwork? gosh, i dont even want to get started on that topic. gotta improve my gpa this sem.

Muddled thoughts

Watched another concert today. Not bad, enjoyed myself. Strangely, this year in every performance I went to catch, I seem to revisit my past. Familiar tunes that I've played over the years of my 'bandlife' haha...

I really enjoyed and never regretted accepting the idiot's invitation =D to try out the band.. Though now, things have changed. It's coming down to something that isn't juz fun, but something that can be pursued prolly? I don't know wat to do sometimes. I feel like just letting things flow but at the same time, there's something nagging at me to do more.. Internal struggle within my mind.

Pulling one way then the other... I need to motivate myself more. Get rid of these insecurities..

drained

one day left to the first week of the new school year. and i already noticed the doom and gloom which came along with the modules im to take this semester. wohoo...... ... .. .

just experienced a four-days-which-im-in-school-from-8am-and-only-get-home-round-1030? im pretty screwed. damn, committee in two CCAs is no joke. hope i stay sane...

turandot turandot... nice piece. lets play faster. HAHA.

odyssey

i had a good time. thanks guys.


btw, if you got a concert, try not to go to a chalet. especially one with lotsa booze. quite fun, messy, energy sapping, sleep depriving. i practically drove myself crazy.

had a good rest today. parents anniversary and we ate out at long beach seafood. unfortunately sis is at camp, so we'll go out during the weekends for round two. =D

argh, need exercise. missed the badminton session due to my participation for the concert. tomorrow, or rather later on, sweat it out and lets play some football!