one more day.

tomorrow is the final day of 2009. looking back on the year, there's been ups and downs. i'd say its be a great year. grown (not much in height) and learned lotsa stuff. lemme see wat r the highlights  significant events to me theis 2009.

January:
the opening few days spent in the Philippines with my couzzs. hah. that looks to repeat next year. =D
O'Level Results!
Posting results right at the end of  the month! then the scramble to appeal.

February:
coming to realize that im really on my way to poly.(my highest hope was getting into CJC)
"emo" for bout 2 weeks. (lol)
mummy's brithday!

March:
St Gabriel's Symphonic Band retaining the Gold award!
mum and dad 18th anniversary!

April:
School has begun midway into the month! im a DARE student!
joined the symphonic band!

May:
my birthday!
SPSB FO Camp! got to know the ppl there
2 auditions! i failed to join the NW Band, but the SPJazz one went alright.

June:
dad's birhtday!
jazz band camp! opened a new chapter in my music journey!

July:
IBM concert! had a great time with the saxy section! hah!

August:
more or less the band clique is formed consisting of saxys trombones and one flute most of the time. haha

September:
an old friend's birthday. haha.
sister's birthday!
JB trip with friends! go there juz wack! haha!

October:
nothin much happened this month.. hah. a new term. woo!

November:
solo competiton for MD! didnt do great but learned here and there. gonna make sure to win at least once!
met old friend after so many months. haha

December:
Christmas with SRC along with all the pracs that we had to deliver our CHristmas Presentation "The Gift"
hangin with family esp the couzzs! woo.

yep. it was good.

Merry Christmas

thank you SRC for the wonderful Christmas celebrations.Singing praises to our Savior who was born on this very Christmas Day. The true meaning of Christmas. i am glad to have been part of this amazing group to help spread the messages of Joy Peace Faith Hope and Love.

tmr marks one more day for 2009 i'll enjoy with y'all then i'll join my family for belated Christmas cheers. not to mention the coming of the new year 2010.

hopefully i am able to carry out a task for myself. a final opportunity for this year.

not badd. heh

its been an enjoyable fews days. called over yang alan elliot yubing liyi carrie to stay over at my place on sunday night. kovie arrived the next day for brunch. pretty fun time. managed to smoke up the kitchen when alan elliot bing and myself were preparing dinner.haha.

dinner was good. had soup, two whole chicken, salad, fried chicken, calamari, fries and wine. played a few rounds of the monopoly card game then watched titanic till 3am followed by 10 mins of tom and jerry.

woke up on monday at 11pm. brunch then played monopoly cards while watching zombieland. after that we went for band.

today had band again. did some christmas shopping. slacked at macs when the stores closed till 1130. i like hanging out.been with bandies recently. the next few days are gonna be with chiormates all the way and with Jesus over the Christmas weekend. but i cant wait to be with my family.even though im around at night, its lonely when im here at home without you all. im not ready to live alone yet. haha. cant wait to have some fun with my couzzs as well.

really...

things just seem to pop right in your face when you least expect it.

hmm, beat some sense into me now.

bwahhh..

home alone for 7 days.

dad and sis are bout to board their flight in approximately 40 minutes time. will be joing them and mummy only on the 27th. i feel like im the one overseas, though it is true in a way coz im a pinoy. haha.

bored.

 http://similarminds.com/jung.html 

http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html

Portrait of an ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Intuition with Introverted Feeling)

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The Inspirer

As an ENFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system.

ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it. 

ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. 

An ENFP needs to feel that they are living their lives as their true Self, walking in step with what they believe is right. They see meaning in everything, and are on a continuous quest to adapt their lives and values to achieve inner peace. They're constantly aware and somewhat fearful of losing touch with themselves. Since emotional excitement is usually an important part of the ENFP's life, and because they are focused on keeping "centered", the ENFP is usually an intense individual, with highly evolved values. 

An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extraverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving. (ooh. one of my 'projects' was playing the guitar -_- focus oin the sax first)


Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships. ENFPs almost always have a strong need to be liked. Sometimes, especially at a younger age, an ENFP will tend to be "gushy" and insincere, and generally "overdo" in an effort to win acceptance. However, once an ENFP has learned to balance their need to be true to themselves with their need for acceptance, they excel at bringing out the best in others, and are typically well-liked. They have an exceptional ability to intuitively understand a person after a very short period of time, and use their intuition and flexibility to relate to others on their own level.
 
Because ENFPs live in the world of exciting possibilities, the details of everyday life are seen as trivial drudgery. They place no importance on detailed, maintenance-type tasks, and will frequently remain oblivous to these types of concerns. When they do have to perform these tasks, they do not enjoy themselves. This is a challenging area of life for most ENFPs, and can be frustrating for ENFP's family members. (haha. i bet mum agrees.)


An ENFP who has "gone wrong" may be quite manipulative - and very good it. The gift of gab which they are blessed with makes it naturally easy for them to get what they want. Most ENFPs will not abuse their abilities, because that would not jive with their value systems. 

ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They have an amazing ability to intuitively perceive the truth about a person or situation, but when they apply judgment to their perception, they may jump to the wrong conclusions. 

ENFPs who have not learned to follow through may have a difficult time remaining happy in marital relationships. Always seeing the possibilities of what could be, they may become bored with what actually is. The strong sense of values will keep many ENFPs dedicated to their relationships. However, ENFPs like a little excitement in their lives, and are best matched with individuals who are comfortable with change and new experiences. 

Having an ENFP parent can be a fun-filled experience, but may be stressful at times for children with strong Sensing or Judging tendancies. Such children may see the ENFP parent as inconsistent and difficult to understand, as the children are pulled along in the whirlwind life of the ENFP. Sometimes the ENFP will want to be their child's best friend, and at other times they will play the parental authoritarian. But ENFPs are always consistent in their value systems, which they will impress on their children above all else, along with a basic joy of living. 

ENFPs are basically happy people. They may become unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. Consequently, ENFPs work best in situations where they have a lot of flexibility, and where they can work with people and ideas. Many go into business for themselves. They have the ability to be quite productive with little supervision, as long as they are excited about what they're doing.(nah, not business.. haha. not at the moment)


Because they are so alert and sensitive, constantly scanning their environments, ENFPs often suffer from muscle tension. They have a strong need to be independent, and resist being controlled or labelled. They need to maintain control over themselves, but they do not believe in controlling others. Their dislike of dependence and suppression extends to others as well as to themselves. 

ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through.
 
Jungian functional preference ordering for ENFP:

Dominant: Extraverted Intuition
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Sensing

camped

had 2 and a half days of camp. intense practice for the upcoming concert. really worn out but it was very productive. had a good time with everyone esp with my saxy section.

cant wait for concert. ahhh, performances are awesome. pracs juz suck lots of energy after each session and what's more ive got 2 concerts to prepare for. haha. one after the other, only a week apart.

and finally, it is to be. im in the commitee for both bands. librian for jazz band, which was announce during the jazz camp in oct. as for symphonic, yet to find out wat im gonna do. oww. gotta work hard.

a lil high.

joined my family for a bbq after mass. had a good time with good food. and of course drinks. heh heh. called tee hsien along to fill his belly. then talk talk luh. with a a few shots. haha.as we circled punggol park and then hung out at the playground. flashbacks of the times i used to play those games like "colour catching", "blind mice" etc. those were the days. also touch upon the crazy things that happened in sch and more recent times. haha. glad he could join. else im stuck with adults discussing about projects, tennis, or asking me questions like wher im schooling and blah blah. at least i was lightheaded with a buddy. haha. next time we'll hit those places. wahahahaha

random

hmm. i should go for a jog every now and then. or cycle at least.

sexy voice...

now its my turn to get that raspy voice. i sound absolutely ridiculous too. like a wheezing old man tryin to get his words right.

beh.

nyehh...

arg-(off key) ~~~~~~~ -cough- -cough-

hahah... MST next week, afterwhich, practices are gonna occupy my most of my days till Christmas and im gonna spend the closing chapter of 2009 back in the Philippines.

weekends!

and it took me a hour or less of proper reading and understanding when noting down the important things for electronic practical. found it very manageable. wished i did the same for a previous quizzes. didnt revise for those at all. haha. shot myself in the foot. should do well for today's assessment.

rushed back to hougang to meet up with melv ninian and gwyneth. we took a bus down to innova jc where daryl joined us to catch yvonne's musical. it was pretty fine. the leading roles by yvonne and her partner were done well. good job. haha

had a pleasant surprise after the performance. first off saw clarence two rows in front of mine. then later on received a call form kristel. had a lil chat with her before going off to join my choirmates back in hougang. they went off first cuz i wanted to see my old friend and boarded the bus while i was caught in two minds. haha. 

its the weekends tmr! yes! charlie's son's wedding. woo! never been to one. only hear bout those from friends and see it on television. should be wonderful. haha.

ahh...

i feel better. thanks. you made my night. haha. rest well

Argh!

damn it. i dont need this right now. i dont know what i want anymore. fcuk.

argh.

IDEAS, IMM, massage chairs

IDEAS is so troublesome. or rather, our lecturer is making it quite troublesome. juz as long as the marks are good, thats fine. went to IMM today to do the group work. decided to do on massage chairs. checked out 3 stores. but only one stood out. hahah. wont say which.

oh, bought a blazer. using it for Christmas. heh heh.

im counting down the days to when i'll see you again.

thinking....

this semester is really hectic. hardly have any time to do everything. squeeze my schedule. assignments and projects piling up on me. music to practice. and sleep to recover my tired mind and body.

ahh..... time. is ticking away. each day is pretty good. most of the time. its those short lil moments that seem to stay in my mind forever, that brings colors into my world.at the same time, some disappointments and confusion. 

my imgination and daydreams need to be put in check. letting it run wild isnt healthy for me.

t-i-h-s

you dont practice enough, usually end up with shit. applies for nearly everything in life such as music, math, sports, games, blah blah.

gotta stop screwing around. shit.

towards excellence, labor omnia vincit

its hard enough without having those emotions running wild. beh. procrastination will be my downfall. presentations have piled up. practices are more tiring. attachments to previous bands are stretching my schedule to the limit. self practice at home is scarce. 8 hours of sleep is even rarer. mid sem tests at the end of the month. juz let me cope with this and walk away with excellent outcomes in everything.

more than ever, the motto of my pasts serve well

to remind me wat im supposed to do.  

silver~

the symphonic room was open after class. went in and borrowed a saxo. now there's 2 altos to play from. heh heh. prac at home. wee...

i wished everyday starts at 12.

forgot my lecture notes for both modules today, Intro to Engineering and Mechanics. in the end juz slacked away in one corner. solo comp was dominated by the year 3s. i played wat i could. not my time. not yet. aint enough to impress. haha. i know that myself. so ive gotta match the standard next time around. practice afterward sapped up more energy than usual. went through cavalry, la forza, elizabeth, the graduation song for yr3s and star wars. normally juz focus on 2 but i guess its to make up for the wed's prac which was canceled cuz we're gonna attend a concert as a band.

oh, i didnt bring my alto so i ended up using one of the silver selmers. damn, came across this particular one among the 3 unused horns. not bad, made me miss playing a selmer.itsquite a seasoned sax and the intonation and sound is pretty much awesome. haha. wonder if i can find a way to obtain it.. heh heh. hmm, it seems lihao has a d-day. by the end of this month mr chiang is gonna access his playing and conclude whether or not he will be part of the concert coming january. i do hope he'll pass this test. 3 weeks isnt a lot. but i believe we can make anythin possible. elliot and i are gonna help him out every way we can. jia you lihao!

ahh... so tired. should i visit exodus tmr?

hours away.

a mini showdown beckons later on the evening. may i tap into my feelings and raise my concentration. let me give an honest and strong performance tonight. may i walk away without any regrets hanging on my shoulders. thank you for the support my friends. appreciate it lots. let the music flow tmr.

---ember!

went over to px today. reached the place at 1130 had free lunch. haha, thanks sir. drilled the saxys on their set and choice pieces. they're okay luh, work on it consistently, they'd be fine. made it juz in time for mass. then tagged along for dinner at adele's place. went back to church for the christmas mass prac. woo! the build up to festive celebrations has begun. o yea.

yesterday i caught the summertime big band at tangs. good time. speakin of big band, also experienced the count basie orchestra at the esplanade last monday. woo! great exposure juz listening out to live music. im gonna play awesome soon. like i always tell others, practice. its juz easy to slack, but when time and effort is put in place, the rewards are great. 2 more days to solo comp. gonna do some prac tmr before attending the sec 3s confi at the nativity.

glad theres no class tmr

thank you Lord for answering my prayers for a day off. its been a tiring week. assignments projects to prepare and presentations suddenly pile up. haha. i guess its to balance out the scales since last sem our class hardly did anything. its definitely not the time to slack. i have to get that 4 this sem. haha. and i have to juggle sch with other activities.

having 2 concerts to prepare is rather tiring indeed. beginning to feel the effects of playing 3 nights a week, each session after a long schedule of classes. moreover, after the practices its bout past 11. which in turn means i get to bed by midnight or even later. like when i stayed up to complete my IDEAS presentation. but it was worth it i guess, it went okay. sleep deprived, it sometimes get difficult to stay awake. haha.

i really havent got much time to revise at home or even include more activities without sapping up the reserves of my energy per day. weekends are more or less decided on where ima be. gotta find a slot to squeeze in some revision and practice on my instrument. haha. solo com is on mon too. beh..

i found todays prac at jazz pretty smooth compared to the past weeks that we've been struggling through. awesome work guys! we'll do great. haha.

oh yeah. im getting an itouch. yay!

JY. (Y)

November begins a new chapter. school has more or less settled itself and now used to the schedule which will repeat its default characteristics week in week out. in between those theres concerts and celebrations to encounter to add flavor for this month.

i had a good weekend, sat with the band clique to catch the SWS concert @ TP. and today had Adele's birthday celebrations with choirmates and friends. didnt do much work of practice. ahh... presentations beginning to pile up, and the solo com beckoning, and my need to play decently on thursdays. its easier to juz forget those significant activities and ride my luck.

oh please let me kick start my engines by this month.
 \\im gonna start tmr! jy!

wow.

i can say i now have an idol to look up to. simply phenomenal. breathtaking. inspiring.

Gerald Albright!

 ive been missing out a lot. gotta do more research and practice.

dumb me..

carelessness will be my downfall. have to watch myself more. wat i say or do will speak volumes. and i cant account for it all to be harmless. the problem is i dun wanna be a pretender. the scary thing is finding out im lying to myself. argh. i try too hard sometimes. and with bad timing apparently. have to be mindful of wat i say. many ways to tell a message. only takes one bad slip and things will crumble easily.

sorry again.

didnt mean to say it that way. i hope my mistake is cleared. dumb of me to have phrased it so bluntly.

cant sleep yet. geez

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.
02. You have been in a serious relationship before.
03. You own an iPod of some sort. (hope to, soon)
04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.
05. You drink too much alcohol.
06. You have been to the Olive Garden.
07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.
08. It is really cold in your house right now.
09. You are extremely dependent on others.
10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.

11. You ate a lot of food today.

12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry. (maybe?)

13. People consider you a sappy sort of person.
14. Someone in your family is rich.
15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.
16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.
17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.
18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.

19. You have had a serious surgery.

20. Your house has a spare bedroom.
21. Your house is old.
22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.
23. You have never held a baby before.
24. You can’t handle toddlers.
25. You have a painting in your room.
26. You have been to Canada.
27. You have been to Mexico.
28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.

29. You celebrate Easter.

30. You observe Lent.

31. You are Catholic.

32. You do not believe in God.
33. Religion is not important to you.

34. You want to have a small family one day.

35. You would rather have more sons than daughters. (LOL.)

36. You have more aunts than uncles.

37. You hate being too cold.

38. You currently are way more tan than everyone else.

39. You wear shoes in your house.
40. Your parents are clean freaks.

41. You are more messy than clean.

42. You are currently angry at someone.
43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.
44. Your desk is extremely clean. (very rarely happens)

45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.

46. When you hear “black & white” it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘Hot n Cold’ song.
47. You have no clue what that song is.
48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.
49. You are glad George Bush IS out of office.

50. Politics are boring to you.

51. You take a vitamin daily.

52. You feel like you are sick often.
53. You hate throwing up.
54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.
55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.
56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.
57. You love getting bubble baths.
58. You do not like chocolate at all.
59. You are allergic to nuts.
60. You have been stung by a bee before.

61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.

62. One of your parents is 50 or older.
63. You are the baby of your immediate family.
64. You hate broccoli.
65. Cooked carrots are good, though.
66. You go on tumblr too much.

67. You are really comfortable right now.

68. You like witty t-shirts.

69. You are a major fan of underground bands.

70. You have been on an airplane before.
71. You are not afraid of heights.
72. You consider yourself paranoid.

73. You have had a panic attack before.

74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.

75. You would choose the elderly over children.
76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.
77. You have smoked weed before.
78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.
79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning. (yesyesyes)
80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.
81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.
82. You are a big breakfast eater.
83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.
84. You are craving something salty.

85. You have been in a car today.

86. There is something plugged in near you.
87. You have heard of the TV show “Private Practice.”
88. You do not like medical television shows.
89. You prefer horror to comedies.
90. You adore Leo & Kate.
91. You think high-waisted pants look good.
92. You hate cheesy movies.

93. You enjoy camping out.
94. Bugs don’t bother you.

95. You do well in school without trying.
96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.
97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.
98. You like energy drinks.
99. You like italics.
100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls.

first week cleared.

fridays are fun. juz gotta make sure i do not lag behind during cadd sessions. though it can be a challenge. 4 hour straight. i alr fell asleep for a bit in our first lecture. =/ anyhow, i expected the com lab to be an ice hole. glad to have been wrong, i can confirm that our crpog teacher loves the cold. feedback from my friend taking that module under her had verified that its like a freaking freezer and she can still wear some thin sleeveless blouse. haha. damm. thank goodness the guy isnt cold blooded.

hung out with mingren alan bing and liyi after class. the 2 guys left leaving the 3 of us and we took a walk around suntech. met familiar faces and snacked on pretzels. went our seperate ways at 430. bing back home, liyi to work and myself collected my pay for the short service i could provide. its a shame i cant continue part timing. was getting used to it and it wasnt bad. juz that my schedule only enables me 1 day per week. so thats bout it.

hey, its been a bad week for ya. dun be put off by these bad turn of events. there's lotsa peeps out there u can count on. smile now okay? let the wind clear the writings on the sand...

thank you.

yesterday was fine, initially got lost otw to IDEAS class. and our mechanics lecturer reminded most of us of secondary school days. or rather those type of teachers in sec sch. haha. but he aint too bad. juz seemed a lil too anti towards the system here in singapore. gems was alright. real estate management. had yubing gris and kovie in the same module. band was quite good. decent run down of west side story.

thursdays are the longest days of the week. however, it was to be our lucky week. engineering math was fine. and after our break from 1130 to 1pm, stayed in our electronics class for half an hour or so before we headed out to fc5 to call it a day. mechanics tutorial from 3 to 5 are held every fortnight beginning next week. hehe.

met up with debby and hung around at the jazz room before havin dinner with the rest of our bandmates. decent practice today. managed to go through all our concert pieces save for one which was softly as in the morning sunrise, in samba. cool right? next week we're gonna work on it. can see there's improvements here and there individually. still havent gel together enough. but we're in the right track. personally i am struggling with the improvs. havent found that comfortable style and very disorganized with my ideas and techniques.

practice breyyy! wahhh. more more more more!
thanks again sikai. haha. thanks to the rest as well luh, u all made the effort to meet up and have dinnertime together! =D thats the way!

oven baked

i feel really tired today. even though i was done with class by 2. we worked rather quickly during the workshop thanks to the lecturer's pace for the session. if i had known, i would have brought back my instrument the night before. haha. had a good 3-4 hours to prac at most. in the end juz browse through scores and theory notes. read manga and currently watching sweet spy. haha. tmr got gems. hmm, should be fun.

oh, tuesdays gotta wear dry fit. the workshop is like an oven. and our lab coats arent exactly very cooling to wear in the first place. most of us look like we ran about or juz came outta the shower. haha

mondaysssssss =D

i got half an hour before i gotta fulfill my promise to knock off at midnight to rise early for class tomorrow. and i dont wanna piss off the folks at this  hour.

officially, i love mondays. period. i mean who wouldnt. after each weekend we grumble bout having to wake up early for 8 - 9 am class. and for ppl like myself, have to include the nearly 1 hour journey to school. im so glad i can get up at times like 10 and not have to rush much for my lessons which begins at noon. woo!

today started off with introduction to engineering. the lecturer turned out to be our personal tutor and IDEAS lecturer as well. following that was mechanics lecture. the guy was okay luh. the module is physics again. should be fine with it. finallt, to cap off the day, OC. not the show, but Oral Communication. its something like CRS i took the previous sem. oh, the lecturer is pinay. cool. she's been here for the past 28 years and still has that pinoy stuff pretty obvious bout herself. im like a totally singapinoy alr. more singaporean-ness in me. haha.

right. so that was lessons. went for band afterward. decent prac. much better turnout. can be compared with the very first prac of the hols. haha. played light cavalry -.- and elizabeth the musical which was a real nice piece. i was playing it for the first time. got lots of interestin sections. wanna try it again. mr chiang mentioned there is a  competition in april in australia. omg, i want to participate. its been so long since the thrill and intensity of having to be graded for a performance. and wats more its overseas! it'll be an incredible experience. i do hope the response is good and we can join. wahh!

blank new page

tomorrow begins another semester. feels like a new year to me due to the entire change of modules im taking. doesnt feel much like im picking up where i left off. how time flies. a year ago i was studying for the O's. since then its been a pretty hectic roller coaster of events. good times and bad times.

now to start off on a brand new page. gotta fill up that report sheet to show a 4 or somewhere real close to it for this second half. then i can look back to this school year and be pretty satisfied. before looking ahead at the immense challenges of the following year.

i got a cut on my finger. damn. it stings.

hmm. Zzz. random crap.

it gets a lil dull. only thing bringing me back is mainly habbit and lack of things to do as a substitute. another reason is juz the sheer pleasure, joy and satisfaction. haha. i realise im getting arrogant. still got a long way to go brey... though sometimes i feel like wanting to take charge luh. its really how much im gettin a lil bored and feelin a twinge of irritation. hmm. it gets to me too when i know im not doing fine in wat im doing. and most of the time i fall hard and flat out. difficult to get back on my feet too. im lucky that i get help and support somehow. havin some sort of ego help get outta some situation. and a lack of it on occasions tend to make me feel suicidal. haha. anyhow, i need to do my own research and find time for self improvement. im too lazy esp when im at home. that extra bit that makes ordinary, extraordinary. average to outstanding. im wanna. but not consistent. i gotta work my ass to reach the stars. its a good form of distraction too. though i dun mind being hooked into something else as well. i can juggle. i think. if not, im learning how to now.

cycle cycle

my legs ache after we chiong from the bike shop to the end and back. im gonna suffer at work tmr. =/

met up with yubing carrie tzeyang and mingren and headed out to east coast park to cycle the evening away. enjoyed the day. kovie joined us at bedok for dinner. woo! im stuffed.

tmr got band. yay. juz dun play light cavalry please? haha. welcome lihao to the piggy saxyphone section!

yay. i got into reaal estate for my gems. along with yubing and gris. should be quite fun. weee!

(Y) too much! hahaha

hello people. this post is super delayed. super lazy. HAHA

last week wednesday to friday i attended a stage performance workshop conducted by Inwardbound Drama. totally awesome 3 days. i was in the ORANGE group and we freakin rock yeah! haha. made friendships with cool talented peeps.its juz sweet havin formed a performance and presented it within the 3 days. pure awesomeness! (Y)

topsy turvy

last week was pretty awesome. though we didnt have symphonic band prac. results came out midweek, not too bad. had jazz band practices to compensate. the extra sessions were mainly for the PSG performance on saturday morning. it went pretty well.


we played in a corner. background music luh. had fun with the band. we performed ~Bye Bye Black Bird ~Beyond The Sea ~Meditation ~Old Devil Moon ~Fly Me To The Moon.the band: debby on the keyboards, me on the alto, matt on bass, jaslyn on the tenor and leonard on drums. afterwards in the afternoon played again, this time mainly debby providing soothin melodies. haha.


i was glad monday resumed band prac! woo. though saxy section olny got me elliot clement and chloe. but had a reasonably good workout. mr chiang went through west side story and la forza.

on tuesday teehsien invited me to his class chalet. was planning to stay overnight but outta the blue received the call that i got the job i applied for nearly a month ago. without thinking i juz grabbed it. hahaha.


so today i started out my first day. F/B insdustry so i was practically on my feet for half a day. okay luh. not too bad. finished shift for the day at 2 then headed to sch for the stage performance workshop. pretty awesome time too. picked up good pointers here and there. gonna continue the program tmr till fri. =D


went straight to the symphonic room round 5. started to work on individual pieces. it was sectionals today. only other saxes were yanling and liyi, and they left at 745. Zzzz. so more or less juz went through all the pieces and drilled on the challenging parts till say 815. gettin a lil dull with so few ppl. kovie left together with the girls. gris fell sick. the rest didnt come. beh. and my phone died out on me. so was humming to myself on the way back. HAHAHA.

not badd.

Module Code - Grade
-------------------
EE3115 - A
MS6506 - A
SP0521 - A
LC0518 - B
MM1401 - B+
MM1305 - B+
MS6120 - C+

GPA 3.4166

hmm, managed to pull up some modules. cprog got A? whoa. unexpected. sigh, math C+. if only lecturer didnt change. was fine with the previous one. nvm! next sem work harder! woo!

JB.

awesome time with band clique. thanks carrie liyi kovie tzeyang!

Day1
was late when we met up at causewaypoint. half an hour to be exact. haha. but tzeyang was the last to arrive. his couz drove us over to malaysia. had our first meal there at George and the Dragon. ate lamb together with kovan and carrie. liyi and yang's couz robin had fish chips and yang himself had pasta. we had a small cake for liyi as it was her birthday. the dinner was rounded of with dessert. chocolate fudge with ice cream. yum yum.

afterwards we headed to purchase groceries. mummy carrie was gonnna cook for us the following night and she needed ingredients. grabbed everything else we needed like chocolate and drinking water. haha. total amount paid was 140RM. also bought 2 movies district9 ans tsunami. had some funny moments when yang was unlocking the gates as his couz keeps nudgin him with the car and randomly playing with the lights.

at his place we settled down our bags and soon started havin fun on the Wii before calling it a day.

Day2
by the time everyone was up, nearly 11 i think. kov got his pic taken as he was the last to rise. haha. we continued to laze around till 2pm before we headed out to shop. while walking to the main road a kitten followed us. cabbed down to jusco aeon. shopped and had snow ice then resumed our shopping.

that night we got home we set out to prepare dinner. we started bout 8. enjoyed making the preparations. carrie's dish was worth all the wait and yang and his dad grilled chicken too. dinner began at 11, soon after we filled our bellies and drank red wine we bought earlier.

Wii again before sleeping. haha. though its mainly us guys playing late on into the night. resident evil the umbrella chronicles is quite fun. haha.

Day3
woke up around the same time. kov and liyi were up earlier and the prepared breakfast. ham sandwich. after everyone washed up and dressed, yangs dad drove us down to another mall to shop. we had our lunch at secret recipe. another awesome meal capped off with a few slices of cake. haha. we made a few more rounds in the mall, askin the girls to try out dresses and stuff. that night yangs dad brought us to a thai open air restaurant. tomyum, kangkong, mango fish, beancurd and stingray. woo! stuffed.

Day4
ahh, our last day. this time we had to rush a bit the moment we woke up. planned to have a lookie at city square in the afternoon. once we've all packed we made our way down. everyone managed to do some last minute shopping for items then we had dessert at secret recipe again. ordered slices but the meal was partially ruined by poor service. they really took their time in serving us our orders. wats more we were all pressing for time.

we grabbed our bags from the car and cleared the checkpoint in JB. soon we were back in the shores of singapore. haha. i took the bus to kranji with liyi as i was going for jazz band prac while the rest were going towards woodlands.



i had a really good time in JB. more or less cut off from schedules and mails and internet. phone calls and msg were nearly non existant. juz had it free and easy there with buddies. bought a few items there but have to admit, my belly and taste buds were the ones pampered over the course of the whole trip. going to JB only incresed my eating propendency. hahaha

ahh~ just wack only!

woo!

woo! good game. haha. dumb sending off though. hehe

monday going jb! woo! uuh, havent pack.

munch munch.

ive been eating a lot this holiday. really need to include sporty activities. GUYS, ORGANIZE SOCCER! fishcake, lets go cycle again! hahaha.

all ive done is eat, sleep surf, band. which is fun. haha. darn, i finished the cookies. better go to sleep. then i'll have a feast in my dreams. hahah. retarded. depending on the time i rise from my slumbr, i hope to make a trip down to px again before mass.

argh, still feeling a lil hungry. GG.

love love

woke up at a decent time, 9am. wanted to leave immediately for peixin but was in a lazy mood. i did leave my place in the end, just before 12. managed to finish Air Force 1 on AXN before i left. met up with rus and ben then we took the saxy ppl out for sectonals. hmm, it was okay. the altos need a lil more things to work on than the other family members. tenors are pretty much stable, can focus on bringing up their junior. the bari is a real enthu player, quite okay too. keep up the good work ppl.

had to rush back to church again coz i overstayed. initially planned to leave by 4. delayed things by 30 min. at least this time i didnt have to take a cab. i arrived on the dot 530 and the priest was juz about to walk to the altar. thank you Lord, i was able to reach there on time. today's homily by visiting priest Father Luke was very meaningful. a few quotes, love should be savoured and appreciated. it's patient and forgiving. when forgiving, the more u should forgive when u feel the opposing party dun deserve it. likewise he also mentions kindness shown does not necessarily have to be for someone who deserves it. this reminds me of ARC. act of Random Kindness. haha.

after mass, i joined family along for dinner. ended up in suntech. ate at pepper lunch and strolled around afterwards. my legs are worn out, practically been on my feet the whole day.

fun

initially we were to head out to east coast park to cycle this friday afternoon. but due to the sudden heavy rain we had to change our course of action. i made my way to bugis instead and had lunch with yubing, madeline and alan at seoul garden. stuffed ourselves and made our shirts stink. bought those 6 bucks tees at bossini where the staff talked and complained too loudly for their own good. haha. of course we can hear them complaining bout the bbq stench, thats why we wanna buy something to change into. juz shuddap, at least we're buying. idiots. haha.

anyhow, seeing the weather was okay, we reverted to the original plan and took the bus down to parkway, to east coast. woo! it took a while to convince maddy to cycle along but we managed to in the end. she and i took the double bike and it was tough to get the momentum going, kept wobbling at the start. but soon we were zooming down the cycling path. hahaha! alan is a reckless cyclist and he nearly crashed into another. haha. lucky it was all alright, no casualties. thats not how u pick up luh, by crashing into them! hahah jk jk!

we had a good time cycling, but it was tiring too. we met up with tzeyang late on and hung out in parkway parade. chit chat and stuff around with sweets and coffee before heading home. haha. fun outing but missed prac though.. again. =/

oh since its the 5th alr, happy birthday old friend, you know who u are.

"i'll be at a distance. closest i can be."

vacation

exams are over. haha. i think i did okay for all. screwed some parts here and there. should do fine i guess. hopefully score quite high for one or 2? at least above average please for all!

argh! forget bout it! dun have to worry till bout sept 20th +. now juz stick to holiday mood yea! though i have to say,i feel as though ive got lotsa free time on my hands. all that talk of letting loose and havin fun during exam period is gettin kinda dry. haha. feeling bored and juz plain lazy to do stuff. hahahah! wtheck. hmm, give it a while and i'll never almost never feel like going for lessons in sem 2.

so anyway, i cant belieeve i woke up at 9 today? i expected like around the region of 12pm? haha. pleasant surprise but i had to kill time coz band prac only starts at 245 in stgabs. ugh. near half day to keep myself occupied. somehow did it, but overshot and left bout 320. gosh..

it was the usual in exodus band. the saxy section had changes again. ugh. so took them out one by one so hear them out and see wat they can improve on. not too bad, the sec 1s kinda promising. the sec 2, pushed to bari, is not spiteful, still enthu. good! he's gonna do fine. improved well since i last saw him. the sec 3s the usual, juz dun slack like me. haha!

after their prac the band had a celebration for all the september babies. so we had cake. now thats new, why didnt we have that last year.. haha. it was pretty cool that these things occur in band, helps bring everyone closer i guess. and enjoy band prac (thats wat they say). bribery. haha. the downside on my visit though was that its their last prac before resuming in mid oct after the sa2s. bummer.

here's somethin juz moments ago



YUBING®((: says:
*im bored luh):

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*talk to me

YUBING®((: says:
*haha

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*tell me your name

YUBING®((: says:
*you not gaming?
*haha

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*nnopww

YUBING®((: says:
*LOL

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*haha.. wats your name
*sounds like the name of my next gf
*HAHAHA

YUBING®((: says:
*LOL
*cool right
*then there's another one
*do you have plasters?
*cause i've hurt my knee falling for you

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*LOL

YUBING®((: says:
*style right

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*yea

YUBING®((: says:
*haha

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*Am I dead, Angel? Cause this must be heaven!

YUBING®((: says:
*LOL

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*haha
*did it hurt?
*when u fell outta heaven
*HAHAH

YUBING®((: says:
*hmmm.
*if it's you that's causing me to fall. i wouldn't mind continue falling

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*whoa
*haha

YUBING®((: says:
*i'm sweet right
*haha

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*i didnt know angels fly so low
YUBING®((: says:
*LOL

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*haha

YUBING®((: says:
*Honey, I'm new in this town - dya think I could have directions to your house.

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*haha

YUBING®((: says:
*I hope you know CPR, cos you take my breath away!
*i went to google pick up lines
*haha

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*wat time do u have to back in heaven
*if i followed u home, would ya keep me?
*haha

YUBING®((: says:
*haha
*sure(:

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*wee!

YUBING®((: says:
*LOL

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*haha!

YUBING®((: says:
*bored luh
*haha

-Breyann Lennard Rafael- says:
*yea

epic sia. haha it was fun this chat. suddenly thought of pick ups. lol. all coz bored.

nows the 3rd. i remember yours though u didnt on mine. but its cool. haha.

wee hours into the night~

just hours before the next paper. math. juz doing final prep for it. haha. its like almost 4 am. tzeyang's pretty desperate as well, though now he juz told me he's knocking off. haha. really should have concentrated more during the day. anyhow, the weekend wasnt too bad. on fri after cprog paper( which went okay~) wasted the afternoon away watching movies till we met up for dinner.

dinner was at suntech with the usual crew. uncle ellie's flyin to china for his course studies so we thought of a farewell dinner. wont see him for another 3 weeks. plz bring presents! hahahah. we hung out at the esplanade later on before callin it a day. sat was normal, tried to revise then went for mass. after that went to town with family to bring couz around, ended up going over the same places i went the night before. haha.

now bout sunday. stayed home. again tried revising. but was watchin the whole season of starwars clone wars. GG. so the day's revision wasnt productive. it was until late hours of the night, did i really start producing proper and accountable work.

geez, i really really love to do things last minute. =/

C. u on fri.

cross my fingers for splendid results for my Thermofluids and Electrical Technology. i did quite a good amount of revision and practice for those, i think. haha. wasn't particularly troubled too much during the papers. hope i'd feel the same way for my Computer Programming this friday. after that paper, it'd mark the halfway point of my semester exams with the remaining 2 next week, Fundamental Mathematics and Engineering Materials, monday and wednesday respectively. afterwhich, its officially party time!

okay.. back to the present. take a day at a time. haha. didnt do much revision at all today for Cprog after ETech. played games the whole afternoon. >.< tmr i'd better get my lazybutt to do some proper work. at least a passable effort. haha. oh yea, my couz is comin over to stay in S'pore and apply for some job here. should be accompanyin mum to pick her up at the airport.

anyhow, back to the current topic on revision. come on lets keep going, it'll be fine yo! do what you can and do it well luh. haha.
all the best again~

best of luck ppl!

flippin' books, taking notes, solving questions after questions. its not that hard. been doing that for most of the week. amidst doing other tasks which helps me retain my sanity. haha!

themo mainly filled my weekend as my bum warmed the seat. mousehunt too. =P
ahh, i wanna read a good book. been a while since i last hooked myself into pages. lost in a world constructed by our minds as we project out the writer's words. now im wandering around in numbers, terms, laws, equations. haha.

well, gotta mug for the exam, wat to do. haha. just the distractions are too mouth watering to resist for some. hehe. dota~ haha. but yea, i hope ive prepared enough. should do fine.

all the best everyone.

quotes

random quote:
it takes more than good memory to have good memories.

haha.. cheem
stuff u do when ur studying/revising. anything else!

a bit more effort, c'mon!

i seriously need to concentrate better.
my revision has been such a fiasco.
cant wait to cross the finish line, into the holidays.
so much to look forward to; band practices in SP Symphonic and Jazz, Exodus, Peixin. vacation with friends in JB, outings, soccer (please!) and a possible part time job.
though im glad i've still got this little time to prepare myself. if the examinations were to begin this week, i'd say im gone for...

chiong! haha..

hmm, i need to understand myself completely or improve on my understanding. argh, sounds pretty stupid huh? im quite in a tight fix nowadays. things going haywire recently and everywhere else too. lotsa crap's been going around everyone's lives and events are making me feel real uncomfortable. it's like clouding my vision, judgement, moral and i feel i gotta change something within. soul searching it is then. O Lord be my Strength.

love love~

rise and shine, its Assumption of Mary our Mother. attended the 8am mass before heading out to meet rus at bishan. wah, i saw 6 trains pass by before i got on to the one he's in, and finally made our way to peixin band.

okay, so we played around some songs and had fun, but yes, we had to carry out wat we came for. drilling the juniors! we had a good 2 hour sectional which we covered a page, bar 36 to bout 80 plus i think. haha. And The Ocean Glows is a real nice piece and quite a good challenge for woodwinds. hahaha. but primary sch? hahaha.. the usual px band.

right, i had to cab down to church coz i overstayed at px. i was slightly late for mass, but i was thinking bout the 15 bucks i paid... but i was soon enthralled by the music that filled the grand walls of our church. Thank you God for the gift of music in our lives. it's such a beautiful language thats has no bounds.

afterwards we went for a hearty dinner somewhere in kovan. full of fun laughter and good food. we wished steven a successful spell in the US as he unfolds a new chapter in his life. we'll miss ya bro. come back visit ASAP! hahahah/

ooh, i laughed so hard tonight.. coz the guys were comparing their tummy. and emmanuel's reaction was just epic. hahahah.

uhh

had so much fun over this long weekend. haha

today played a good game of soccer at bradel heights. took a while to shake off the rusty feeling. after that, i joined my family to catch GI JOE. it was pretty good. haha. we watched it at iluma bugis. haha, the place forever in winter season. haha!

bad thing i realised though, i didnt do much revising.. =/ gg..

Barrage

Happy National Day.

better late than nerver. haha
had a good time out today. met up wit kovie to buy some supplies before heading out to marina bay station. went to the marina barrage along with kovie, yubing, carrie, madeline, alan, weeseng, tzeyang, lucas and liyi. had a crazy feast, very healthy*.. haha~!

under the blistering heat, we had fun playin cards, games, dares, and yes, camwhore.. haha.

finally, wat we all been waitin for, the fireworks to errupt. its good, cept for the IRs partly blocking the view. nevertheless, it was a good sight. there goes millions, or wat alan said: tax. haha!

we took a free shuttle service to the barrage, but obviously we couldnt take it back to the mrt station, so we walked. hahaha.. pretty long walk i have to say. nearly made a mess of myself. lucky we had to catch up with the guys up front so i ran off ahead to reach everyone else. saved!heh..

we had dinner at raffles city at the food court before going home. was disappointed with the defeat but its okay luh. more things to worry bout. Zzzzz.....

i need my sleep. someone knock me out.

hehehe~

friday's fun. haha, first though, i went through lessons till bout 11. did our project for CRS, our group topic was on pornography.. hahah! we managed to finish it and at the same time i killed off hours cuz had to wait for peeps to end class at 5 before we make our way to vivo.

hung out with yubing, liyi, gris, kovan, tzeyang, mingren, alan, cecilia, carrie and madeline. take away dinner from the foodcourt and ate at the open roof area. had some fun with truth/dare. but soon, it became clear that everyone juz preferred to camwhore.. haha, thank u carrie for my phone suddenly having a huge increase in pictures.. haha!

longer weekend.. hehehe...

its a looooooong weekend! weee!

juz got back from jazz prac. its really a tough and challenging genre to learn and apply. but im coping fine i think. =/ haha. vincent's been a great help, i really appreciate and am in awe whenever he plays. hahah! gotta learn from him to be on par with him asap!

exams are 2 weeks away. i know i can revise and get down to business, but i really have to have better control of my mood.. Zzzzz... sleep more too. haha!

yay, friday's here. gonna hang out with bandies. yahoo!

hurdle

im losing my interest again. haha.
nows the tough part alr, under pressure to perform well in studies and personally, in my playing.
cant find the right balance yet. beh...
exams in a few weeks time, cant wait to overcome that hurdle.

reflection

I was existing each day
Leaning towards boredom of life
In front of me, i see only lines and random patterns scattered.
Keen to bring back that feeling
Encouraging myself to feel the music within
Yet, i wasn't strong enough to be inspired.
Out of the blue, you walked into the scene
Unknowingly, that point on i was lifted,
Like a sunrise, i was enlightened,
In my being, i acknowledged the shift in my soul.
Yesterday held those better moments,
I now await for the moon to set.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

my message in every letter.

stuffed

got up at 830 to meet up with choirmates for breakfast. after that we made our way to church of risen christ which is situated at toa payoh. teamed up with jess and daryl at the foot of the stair. proved to be a bad decision, we didnt get to sell much coupons or collect donations either. though daryl made an effort and became thick skinned by asking ppl left right centre. i tried but kept being shoo-ed away, jess luck was no better. haha..

after counting the total amount sold blah blah, ate lunch at botak jones. ordered a massive burger set. was stuffed afterwards. hahaha. daryl ordered the same thing and he felt the same. haha!

after that i went home and slack. chat on msn with bing.. haha!

now still chattin with her along with mingren. hahaha

sattt

studied with mich at bk, wheelock. wah, i realise im like a tourist whenever im walkin along orchard.. haha, many new changes and additions. haha. after studying we walked to plaza sing coz mich got her lesson at yamaha. we managed to reach there on time haha!

i had a look around plaza sing before makin my way back to hougang for mass. today the choir sounded a lil rough. but overall good, the usual.. haha. joined my choirmates for dinner, been a while since i last tagged along with them. steven's gonna fly off to US on 18th aug. bout 2 weeks le, gonna miss him. wonderful friend, brother.

tmr gonna meet up with choirmates to sell tickets for our church's feastday.

whoops!

alright! weekend's here!
class was fine. Electrical tech lecture was hard to absorb! omigosh, GG.. thermofluids lab wasnt too bad, though i had to do two experiments for today's session cuz i skipped the last one. after that i hung out with my classmates for lunch before heading off to the band room to kill time. had to wait for kovan and yubing, going dinner after their classes finish.

slacked with tzeyang till 5 plus. then we made our way to dhouby and met up with mingren. the 5 of us ate at Just Acia, food not bad luh. but it was after our meal, when all the fun began. hahaha.

wah, tired sia. didnt get to go for choir prac. =/

MingMing! hahahahahaa

happy birthday Mingren! bet ya wasnt expecting the celebration at fc 5! hahah!
hehe, smell of choc brownie on the way home right? hahaha. nice one tzeyang! have a blessed year ahead man.

laughter, the best medicine

hung out with yubing, kovan, madeline, james, alan, mingren and tzeyang. met up the the library before heading out to cineleisure. got ourselves tix to catch THe Haunting in Connecticut and had dinner at pastamania. the movie was pretty good, thrilling. but i was laughin a lot.

i sat between maddy and james. i noticed maddy sank lower in her seat as the movie progressed. but i was really amused when i realised james was keeping his eyes shut whenever got shocking/ scary moments. HAHA.

after the movie we traded stories on the movie experience and im kinda glad i wasnt next to yubing. ahhaha! alan got wacked the whole time and demonstrated on me, wat he experienced. =.= wtheck, pain sia! i told them bout james and maddy and everyone burst out laughing. it was total hysterics! gotta watch together again, along with more ppl! haah!

hmm.. i realise things are getting a lil too messy. beh...

goodnight, tmr still got sch..

im not crazy. i hope

i think im still a lil unwell. gotta pull through.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

if i were to mention to you three words. as you gave me some comfort in my life. shared part of yourself. and allowed me to do the same. would this juz break away and reveal itself as juz my imagination..? im scared. a coward. i'll hang on to this for now.

schedule!

THFLD1, 24 Aug 2009, 4:00pm - 6:10pm
E.TECH, 26 Aug 2009, 12:30pm - 2:40pm
C_PROG, 28 Aug 2009, 9:00am - 11:10am
FMATHS, 31 Aug 2009, 9:00am - 11:10am
EMATL1, 2 Sep 2009, 9:00am - 11:10am

boo... 5 papers again.. beh.

lovesss

oh yeah! IBM concert was fantastic! loved every minute! hahaha. was nervous at first but after a confident playing of Ride, things went on pretty smoothly. for Theatre Music i was able to play a part i never really been able to play previously! (the third set of running note at the beginning!)hahah! cool! i felt we played Jungle the best. Sea Of Wisdom wasnt too bad. the rehearsl in the morning was better.

i gotta say though, Sing x3 and Omens Of Love were played pretty well! more feel and stuff compared to the times we worked on it. IBM song was relaxed, hahah.

ooh! Godzilla was juz awesome! the parts were spot on and the crowd really had a good laugh! we, the performers, also had a really good time doing the skit. cant wait to see the video!

Music For Festival was not bad as well, coughed uo here and there coz tired and high from Godzilla. lols. and Dancing Megahitz, Bing played great. haha. clement and i were playing our own style for some melodies. hahah! speaking of clement,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA! HAHA! SORRY BOUT THE CAKE GETTING ON YOUR FACE! XD

woots.

i love concerts, love those who came to support, love the peeps i played along with, loveeee the saxyphone section! cant wait for the next event! time to work hard for the upcoming semestral exams.

now im completely worn out, but all the efforts we put in was without a doubt, worth every minute.

goodnight! ahh, wanna go late to sch tmr....

bandy band band....

my afternoons and evenings were occupied by band. final full band prac on wed and sectionals on thurs fri.
i get really worn out after each session, but i simply just enjoy playing the saxophone. times i know i tend to appear like im showing off yeah, sorry bout that. i seek to play stuff the way i want them to sound so i juz keep playing them. bugs me when it sounds off so i keep trying to make it sound perfect and things like that, yea i can appear vain. playing for ppl is always the besst way to enjoy and learn to achieve the styles we like to make it appear. im still trying to leasrn that and joining the jazz band is really a wonderful way to learn. screwing up in the cord progressions does get my moral down a lot but i gotta keep trying.

i think i'll juz stick to lovin every minute i play the sax. haha. band's going on a break after the concert's all done. haha, glad i m in jazz band. wont completely be away from playing for a full month! thats gonna suck big time. but forget bout that, still far too ahead into the future. a step at a time first.

cant wait for IBM concert!

saxy~~~

ahhh, i juz cant help myself. im too used to enjoying the sound of a selmer. the feeling of playing a selmer. my fingers flowing to the rhythm of the piece before me on a wonderfully made saxophone.

dont get me wrong, i am loving the yamaha custom Z im currently on. its very versatile and allows diff styles of playing very well. response quick too! but still, ive been playin it for 2 months consistantly alr but then when i went back to stgabs, i tried the selmers again... and yeah, loved it more.. wahhhh sian. im baised towards selmer liao. muz hunt for a good second hanad. cant afford a new one. beh..

ahhh. still thinkin bout it.. ah!

its alright~ haha

haha. today watched transformers 2 with carrie, junwen and yuzhi. should have been more ppl actually but its fine.
oh yea, we were supposed to watch at cine but there werent any seats remaining and the next available show was at 615. hah! we managed to find out that there was a 3.35 show at filmgrand, the new mall at bugis(i forgot the name, first time went there). all the while yuzhi kept sayin he hates organizing outings.. hahah. its not his fault luh, bad luck only. organize more! practice makes perfect.. hahah!

worn out. but glad

concert's next week!!! ahhhh!!

skipped class yesterday, instead joined sis to watch 3 movies at the library, Lassie, Lilo & Stich2, and Brother Bear 2. haha. afterwards liyi went off with madeline and carrie to buy stuff and i met up with my juniors frim peixin band for a game of bowling. in the end managed three games and then i took a cab to sch(quite near luh, jurong) coz of time constraint. was gonna be late for band. reached sch juz in time but...

i ran into trouble. couldnt enter school at first, but in the end things went fine.. late for prac though. and havent eaten a thing since breakfast. =X
finally yubing understood why initially i wanted to play Sea of Wisdom solo. its the nicest solo of the whole repertoire. haha. Ride is the most challenging. haha gotta work hard to perfect it. but still cant resist playing it whenever i can. now yubing too, keep playin Sea of Wisdom on and on after last night's prac. haha

on the way home was the usual noisy anad fun bunch. hah! though it seemed a lil wilder last night. on th purple line with gris and emm, we found new things to laugh at everytime! and we'll laugh to tears!!

right, movin on, today woke up at 7am for sectional with the tutor at 9. today's session was pretty good, went through some techniques and played, yes, Sea of Wisdom.. haha! afterwards we ran through gozilla with mr chiang(ahgong) LOL. it went pretty smoothly too. im extremely tired after consecutive pracs(wed to sat) but its real fun! monday rehearsal @convention centre!

messed about at home before going for mass, we sang Oh God You Search Me real well. =)
havent been able to hang out much coz of pracs for IBM. hmm...

thats bout it. tmr hangin out with some bandies to catch a movie.

roll out!

school's been a rollercoaster ride this week. i got back 4 outta five results and boy, was it disappointing. low As and 2 Bs. we're all still in the dark regarding our CProgramming but there's no rush in knowing that particular outcome.

i have got to get rid of this holiday mood. the upcoming semester exam is gonna be so important to push my grades up to the max. gotta go for it!

speakin of working hard, gotta practice hard too. IMB 27 is in 2 weeks time!!!! cant wait for it!
yesterday had woodwind sectionals, absolutely worn out after that. we went through more than half the repertoire. it was also held at 9am but we had to reach there by 830, which meant gettin up at 7 to leave by 730? =X but its good to have prac, we only have 2 practices per week excluding sectionals arranged by SLs. i went home after havin lunch wit Uncle elliot and my couzz yubin and james. haha. the relations i have with them is explained below...

haha. Saxyphone section rocks!

the kids are all the year 1s, parents are year 2s and grandma is year 3. haha

there's supposed to be a few more couples but i thought i'd juz put the saxys. the partnerscame from other sections u see....

now its sunday, wat to do...

chiong!

ahhh... overcame the biggest hurdle of the week. C Prog test is over and done with. i hope the results aint too bad. a pass at the very least please?

tmr last paper! go go go!!! thermofluids tested on 1 chap and im lazy like hell to spend hours revising. haha. gonna read it up later before going to bed.

friday's almost here! lets go!

time flies

again, lots of things juz flew by since the last post.

a crisis is on the loom with the h1n1 influenza, schools shutting down one by one. surprisingly SP is not really affected badly.. hope it continues to stay that way. with the number of cases rising and the majority are below the age of 20 its beginning to get outta hand. throughout all the mayhem, the exodianz sufferred badly with thier concert cancelled. i havent been back since coz they dun even know whens their next prac. the same thing goes for peixin(yishun) pri.. last time i went was sir's birthday. been occupied with SP symphonic and jazz band.

im doing fine in SP. band is really fun and we're preparing for our concert I Believe in Music (IBM) on the 26th of july 5pm. interested drop me a message luh. hung out with bandmates most of the holidays. the last two weeks were bandless, kinda boring but we've been going back to sch( for me a 45min ride to and fro) and revising for the last week of holidays for the MSTs. currently im halfway there, 3 papers down, final 2 in my way. the bad thing is, C Prog paper is finally tmr. GG.... thermo's the very last paper. that ones still managable. anyhow, my classmates are great peeps too, though we could be a lil more serious most of the time.. haha. we're pretty united luh and help each other out whenever we can.. very open too. all guys wats there to hide. haha.

with poly life pretty hectic im kinda pushing aside my church choir buddies. been missing pracs and stuff.. uhh,,, gotta be more insightful. plan my schedules properly.. and not let my decisions be swayed by other factors.. we got our own project to finish up. the recruitment for the choir is to be on the 12th and we're gonna prepare a few songs and the youths are the main ones to attract other youths.. we need new blood. haha. pray for things got go well and progress smoothly for everyone.

ahhhh... almost midnight. i really am strugglin to juz focus fully for Cprog.. im almost driven to desperation or juz plain wanna give up on this module. i wont say im not exactly horrible. but when i panic everything goes blank and for this particular module, the chances are extremely high that it may occur. quoting from roger, "screwed like a potato on a salad stick"

choing! still got hope. haaha... need lots of luck.. -ugh-

confidence. or indifference.

i need to discipline myself. badly.

gotta put that extra effort in lectures. esp for the cprog module, even if the teacher can be quite a bitch at times. quizzes arent done, like for the one i just mentioned, along with post math and OH GOSH, the essay.

damn.

here i am wasting time and effort, typing away.

i wish i could stop time. or escape into an alternate dimension where a whole day i spend would only result in an hour passing by. i really really want more time to prepare myself for the auditions coming sun and mon, national winds and sp jazz band respectively.

i finally found time to try out the alto i borrowed from st gabs band yesterday, and i clearly lack playing time. ive been playing the tenor too for the past month, embouchure is forgotten. the last time i blew an alto was late january, (i consider only playing as a band, a proper practice) with cjc band. desperately need getting used to.

whats more, ive yet to select a piece for either auditions. ARGH!
need lots of help!

prayer!

its been a while too since the last post. lots of things has passed. school's been a month and im really into my course i guess. and birthday came too. had friends come over for a dinner/feast with the famly at home. pretty simple celebration but was real pleasure and great enjoyment.
dyed my hair as well though it aint too obvious. had band camp last weekend. it was... messy. but again a great time. got to know most of the bandmates and the games were okay luh. just wished didnt get that many forfeits on the first night... ugh.

in two more weeks it'll be the holidays, though it might be more of a study break. the mid sems test are on the first week back. darn! study study study hard brey!

thats all for now. all the best for the auditions. be confident or go through the whole process with a single thought, clear of all worries and emotions and whatever. like an android. hahahahaha.

nah, too extreme.

good luck..

Surprise!

it was pure joy.
fist pumping in the air.
guys screaming hysterically, dancing about right in front of the judges
who cares?

Gold.

congrats Exodus Band, y'all deserved this, Mr Lin deserved this, it was all through everyone's efforts to want success going to Exodus. Im proud to have been part of this band. its a wonderfully crazed pyscho group of boys performing miracles. hahah.( thats coz we always chiong at the end)

now that we have achieved this Gold, we gotta maintain the standard at least, but more or less look to set the bar even higher.

so continue to attend prac regularly luh.
cya all. take care!

EXODUS RULES

short.

band camp..

update the details some other time..

now using the sch com..

i miss my bed.. heh

but band camps arent too bad

grow up

who am i.

i seek the answer to my true self.

Hear My Prayer O Lord, And Let My Crying Come Unto Me.

Come Unto Me.

falling. failing?

2009 has been quite rough for me so far. i need to change myself as all the flaws in my character have caused chaos.

laziness will be the death of me.

i feel out of place whenever i visit the guys at st gab's band. i dunno how to help or improve my own section. i cant even play well anymore nor do i know wat it is that they could do to sound better, im not a hundred percent sure how to guide them. sometime i feel like im juz there to kill time. i miss playing the most. i find joy in performing with friends during concerts. letting them enjoy listening to us.the success we share when we go for competitions like the syf. and juz hanging out together, fooling around.

really miss it so much.

i also havent been taking care of my body much. im already rather average in height and i cant seem to sleep early and have long peaceful hours of rest. stupid habit needs to go. im bloody heavy too. my weight exceeds the appropriate rang for my damn bloody short of length from head to toe,.

screw that. lazybug has fully invaded my system, im falling apart bit here and there.

gotta pull myself together. school's starting in a month, gotta be serious now.

im on the ground. i fell, time to pick me self up. failed here and there, time to get something right somewhere.

speaking of falling.. i dunno if i have.. or its juz one of them lil jokes called infatuations..

damn these crushes to the heart. like i wanna hav more things at night to keep me awake.

if i were to mention to you three words. as you gave me some comfort in my life. shared part of yourself. and allowed me to do the same. would this juz break away and reveal itself as juz my imagination..? im scared. a coward. i'll hang on to this for now.

slow and easy

at the moment i wish the days could pass by more quickly.. but things are quite fine the way it is.. i kinda gave up on the sales job that AK and i tried out for.. so now i spend my free time helping out the band.

their syf is on the first day, band number 5, juz after the interval... there aint much time left.. but i believe they could just pull it off. Gabrielites generally always 'chiong' when it comes to exams and competitions.. heh..

going back and watchin them practice makes me miss playing in the band a lot. it isnt the same sitting there and giving a few pointers here and there. though at times, yes the practices do get dull. playing the same thing over and over.. the reward is fantastic, totally cancels out watever negative feeling.. haha

if the attitude is there, you can achieve just about anything.. a friend of mine was so determined and set his mind to run 10km daily. went through this routine for 3 months and dang, he looks in real great shape.. 30 kg burned mind you... heh.

haha.. now i should really stop being too lazy..

tired mind

i am unable to have a proper sleep cycle. i find myself constantly going to bed past midnight. whenever i try to fall asleep earlier, itoss and turn as i attempt to drown out thoughts that appear. my mind keeps generating situations of 'what if?' its driving me mad. thus i counter this by going to bad when im sure my mind is really worn out, and once i hit the sack, i just drift into a less peaceful state of rest. sometimes i do not feel tired enough and here i go again, pick up a book to get that sleepy feeling.then i rise from my slumber round mid day. i wanna take sleeping pills to force myself to revert to a better sleep cycle (if i ever did in the first place) im getting sick of doing nothing each day too. i kinda miss the schedules that shape each day of my life. my body and mind is used to waking up getting dressed for sch going through lessons at this time of the year. hmm, weird.. that makes me sound like i miss sch. maybe.i know i miss playing in band. playing on the alto. im too used to that routine. i may be lazy and have some sort of happy go lucky attitude, but i don't think i would go that far. i feel absoulutely like a slob. the pc games are addictive and do help kill of time. but thanks to my parents upbringing, i do not feel that much of a-dick-tive towards these form of escape from the present. id rather play them than do nothing. i can go out too. but then most of the ppl i know are in school.. or working.. Ahh- i could have found a job. yeah, but due to a chain of events which so far made me feel the BIGGEST loser of this whole affair, im relying on parents for the spare cash to spend. recently i revived my bike. brought it out for a spin. i welcome the exercise, my body seem to have forgotten the physical pleasures excessive movements that causes all that sweat to make clothings sling to skin, the odour that comes soon after, relief of accomplishment, and hammering of a fistsized muscle-balloon against ribs. as though one is blindly hitting a xylophone. i want to play the guitar but i know i am limitedly skilled. singing songs alone make me feel as though im deranged. choir is good. though somewhat i get this feeling, umcomfortable. theres also 'that' feeling.. wont mention it at all. -pass- hmm... ive been on facebook so often that its getting irritating. esp with lots of the status reminding more of 'what if?' i used to play on the xbox while it was still around. now its the laptop. reading is better but its hard to find stuff that will hold ur interest in the library. and to buy 'emat popular? why yes, $$$$$. im getting lazy that i can even change my mind easily when i told myself and friends we're going out on this day. pang seh ah? then i'd feel guilty and haul my lazy arse outta the door. sorry melv. now im sitting thinkung that i wanna go back to stgabs and check out the band's syf preparations.. but my lazyness is clouding the confirm button in my head. wahh.. somehow i think lots of this is caused by me still being a lil upset. i was hoping i could get into CJC. though the subject combo may suck and all, i know i can do pretty well. i keep telling myself screw that, but theres still that bitter taste in my mouth, no matter how many glasses of water i drain. gotta find something stronger then.. not wanting to stop typing on a flat key. i cant wait to start school i guess. aeronautical engineering seems preety cool. its the only thing that really sparked my interest aside the whole darn list of poly courses. and i got it at SP. that aint too bad.. its still about a month plus. thats a lot of time. no fun doing nuting and go waste it.

hmm.

bullcrap

when things don't go the way you wish it would. some say there's a reason behind it, that its part of a plan.

doesnt help numb the bittersweet disappointment that swelled up deep within. fuck that.

Unopened Letter To The World

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.
P/S. NO CHEATING!

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne
~ haaha

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
My Paper Heart - The All-American Rejects
~ huh

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings
-.- whut?

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Whoa - Paramore
~WOAH

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Decoy - Paramore
~ huh...

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The Quiet - We The kings
~ yeah.. i guess

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
The Dance Of Eternity - Dream Theatre
~ naw..

WHAT IS 2+2?
Gavorkna Fanfare - symphonic band music
~ HAHA

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
My Happy Ending -Avril Lavigne
~ thats cant be good....

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Five minutes to midnight - Boys Like girls
~ err

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Always Be My Baby - David Cook
~ ....

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects
~ HUH!!!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Into The Night - Santana feat. Chad Kroeger
~ not a bad option?

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
~ whut?

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Life Is Easy - Urbandub
~ err. i dun think it is, otherwise.....

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Another Day - Dream Theatre
~ live to see another day.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Perfect World - Simple Plan
~ ....

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The Great Escape - Boys like Girls
~ yeah, to go through each day's obstacles while having a great time

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Hold On - Jonas Brothers
~ dunno.. be gay? oh no..

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
(un)FOUND - Trinity Church soundtrack
~ the lyrics are pretty meaningful

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
The Bright Side - Dave Koz (saxophonist)
~ hahaha...

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
There Is - Boxcar Racer
~ hmm

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Hero - Nickelback
~thats not so bad..

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Love is on the way - Dave Koz (saxophonist)
~WOAH! haha..

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Pressure - Paramore
~ aww..

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Stop this Song (lovesick melody) - Paramore
~ i wonder... haha

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Fatal Tragedy - Dream Theatre
~ yeah, esp if its someone i know, cared for..

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
~ erm....

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Unwell - Matchbox 20
~ HAHA, I WANNA TAKE ONE MONTH LEAVE PLEASE, THANKS

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Unopened Letter To The World - The Ataris

cross my fingers.

its the start of school for those posted to their respective junior colleges. i was posted to aeronautical engineering in Singapore Poly. no complaints, it was my first choice cuz i couldnt put any JCs in my 12 choices..

back then i thought it would require a miracle for me to somehow continue my education in a JC due to me getting a -9 for my french. and yes i was right, the miracle was a group of people.. my friends have somehow helped me see some faint glowing hope. now ive done what i could. at least i wont regret not taking any sort of action. now i juz have to wait. and pray too.

rollercoaster!!!!!!!!!!

its now comin' to the end of january, a month since my last post. which wasnt much of a post anyway.

since the O's, its like i've been chained to a cart and been treated to a crazy ass track that could go endlessly on a straight boring and slow pace then out of nowhere, the ride of ur life. then it builds up the tension as it climbs higher and higher till u cant breathe cuz of the altitude and when u thought u died as u race to ur grave, u laugh cause theres still more to go through, good or bad? we'll see...

first though, the reason why i never did type anything since, is because of my wonderful cousins.. though there are times wher things got a little ugly, they brought more life in our house.. and dad finally joined us too. so the whole family is together!

to put it simply, i had an unforgettable christmas/new year.
it was my first time experiencin in the phils. i think it can be compared with how my chinese friends celebrate their CNY. to BE with relatives and spend time together full of smiles and laughter. it just happens that we need to get on a flight to see them, generally most could drive, take public transport or just stretch their legs.

well, till next time when we reunite and cause some more mayhem..

now that we're back, i've not entirely been lazin' around. though i couldnt hope to find a job, looks like i still gotta depend on parents.. -.-
and suddenly we got our results.. mine were......... okay. 4Bs 2As.. 15 , 11. it wasnt so bad. could have been much worse. my hopes of gettin admitted to a jc is still lingering about. although CJC is about the only relative chance i've got.
I've set my mind though, that even if i do not get accepted, SP aerospace is really cool. wherever i may end up, i just have to work hard.

so now just hanging around. been attendin CJC band prac. thanks to my senior who has really helped me a lot. i did get a cultural shock in the first prac i attended. St Gab's band isnt bad, but it's been a while since we played really challenging songs. not to mentioned that i've let myself slacken in my playing.. so i have to work hard for band as well if i do get in. the songs are managable, just need prac and soon it'll be okay. juz get a lil nervous playin there.. add to that a sort of tradition to follow.. cant afford to be the one who breaks it... >.<

yeah, so my life has more or less been revolvin around outings with my friends, helpin out at st gabs, prac at cjc. its a simple schedule to follow and carefree.. oh, i caught a movie with AK, Changeling, it was fantastic.. haha.

its gettin late, tmr gonna play full 11 v 11 wit jacob and his classmates. and i'm tired since there was prac earlier.